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I started writing this on Saturday, but only had 30 minutes before quittin’ time, so I’m going to finish it now.  It’s a bit of an update on the “411″ or “Magic Monday” thing and all the vultures that came out-of-the-blue a week ago…

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Lordy, there’s so much synchronicity here, it’s gonna be a challenge to remember it all.  Okay, on “Magic Monday” I got the number 411…  And then the Vulture totem last Saturday (exactly a week ago)… 

So yesterday was the day, 4-11-08.  Nothing really spectacular happened, but I’ve gotten dates in the past and the “thing” happened the day before or after.  A “spectacular” thing happened today, Saturday, 4-12-08.  The second major car accident next to my workplace since I’ve been here (the first was about a year and a half ago, a Jaguar and a semi, head-on collision…)   That one foretold a major “Tower” (Tarot card) experience for me that began about a month or so later — lasted about 4 months, but had a “happy ending.”  Geez, I’m hoping this one isn’t foretelling anything similar, I’ve been rode hard by those “Tower” experiences in the last few years…  And I just noted that the Vulture is on the Animal-Wise Tarot’s Tower card.  Lovely.  Even so, I’m hoping this one is pointing more toward the blissful end of “enlightenment” and since it seems to be tied to the 411(information?) … and “magic,” maybe that’s the case.  Hmm, nice, I just got a “freedom” message – that’s another interpretation for the Tower card, and healing is yet another.  And all of those are kinda intermingled…

This accident today (Saturday, 12th) I could have been a perfect witness for if I’d just been looking up from my desk — I could see the aftermath perfectly from my desk chair.  But a co-worker actually had to draw my attention to it.  He told me the details.  I noticed the car that had caused the accident was yellow, it was totalled…I could see the front all crunched in.  I focused on the yellow, the color of the third chakra, solar plexus.  Noted that this is where the energy of our “will” is, it also makes me think of the sun (something I feel I’m still not getting enough of for my health/healing).  I found it intriguing that the cars landed almost exactly where all the vultures were swirling last Saturday.  The red car was the one hit, it flipped a couple of times and then landed back on its wheels.  That driver hopped out of the passenger side, seemed okay…at first.  He got on his cell phone and then dropped to the ground.  A guy here said he must have been pumped with adrenaline, unaware he was hurt — the other guy seemed okay.

One fire truck was in my view, it had the number 2 on it.  It reminded me of how I’d been seeing the Two of Cups in the Tarot a lot lately.  That card often speaks of a love connection, but I think it’s been referencing my healing during this time — maybe both.  Hmmm, a reference to healing…is my “will” all crunched up (the yellow car) and/or is this yet another message that I’m not getting enough sun?  And has/does my crunched-up will adversely affect my root chakra (red car, spins wildly, but still manages to land upright)?   Root chakra is about the physical (grounding, health, prosperity).  I’m doing okay at the moment, better than in a long time — but am I just running on “adrenaline” (like the guy who didn’t know he was hurt)?  That adrenaline thing is certainly an issue with me, I’m invariably panting when I arrive to work (from my rush to get here), can’t seem to shake that “need” to feel panicked… Just one of the many “issues” that I feel reflects trauma from childhood…

A few days ago I did have a less earth-shaking ”Tower” experience and I feel this might have been part of the reference to this week (the 4-11-08 message), and I’m in the process of “healing” it.  I had planned part of that for this evening, but kept getting negative signs all day, and this car accident was the final straw.  I called and cancelled my plans.  Ahhh, I immediately felt better — yep, my “gut” was telling me this wasn’t the day for this important “outing” …

Wow, just so much overlapping “stuff” here.  But the trees part of it fascinates me.  Where I had planned on going this evening (but will now be going next week), the route there involves three streets, and I noticed they all have tree names (Ash, Walnut, etc)   That seemed so cool…  So I searched for the symbolic meaning of a couple of them just now and they both are on point as to what’s been coming up in the last few days.  Like yesterday – I did a comment on a friend’s blog, {< — Update:  I had the wrong link for the comment on sacrifice, but it’s corrected now) speaking of the Hanged Man card and sacrifice…  She and I also had an awesome synchronicity the day before 4-11 (on April 10th), see the first two comments.  “Double Magic“? ;)  Another sync with she and I is, well, ”wood” is sort of a synchronous connection between she and I.  Oh, man, there’s so much it’s hard to even write it all here.   I forgot…right after I made the call to cancel my plans for this evening, and felt the relief of doing that, of trusting all the negative “vibes” I’d been feeling about it all day, I looked outside and noticed a license plate on a car parked in our lot that said, “Elm.” :)  Yet another tree.  Here’s the Elm interpretation I found:

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Elm tree symbolism includes strength of will and intuition. During the 18th and 19th centuries, elms were popular as ornamentals by virtue of their rapid growth and variety of foliage and forms. This popularity lasted until World War I when the consequences of hostilities, notably in Germnany, and the outbreak of Dutch elm disease saw the elm slide into horticultural decline. Elm wood is valued for its interlocking grain, and consequent resistance to splitting, with significant uses in wheels, chairs and coffins. The wood is also resistant to decay when permanently wet, and hollowed trunks were widely used as water pipes during the medieval period in Europe.

Source:  http://www.livingartsoriginals.com/infoforests.htm

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Now the place where I was supposed to go (but, again, I cancelled/postponed) was on Ash.  Here’s the Ash symbolic meaning…

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Ash tree symbolism includes sacrifice, sensitivity and higher awareness. The wood is white, strong, and straight-grained. Ash is the timber of choice for production of baseball bats and tool handles. The wood is also favorable for furniture and flooring. Ash is a large deciduous tree with smooth, gray bark on young trees which becomes fissured with age. The leaves are green above, white below, and turn yellow, red, or purple in the fall.

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Two other “secondary” streets were part of this, but I didn’t see them on this site, so maybe they aren’t as significant.  Anyway, I just had a minute to put a bit of this here…  There’s really so much more, like with the stuck door here at work, which everyone tried to fix and no one could yesterday (mentioned it on above-linked blog).  It was finally fixed this morning.  A resistance (mine, it would seem) message…  So it’s all about resistance, will, sacrifice, healing.  But thankfully, the door was finally fixed today :)

OH MY GAWD — I just looked out the window, and in the very same parking spot where the car was with the “ELM” on the tag is a truck and guess what the number is on the license plate :) …  4 1 1 …  I’m talking a couple of minutes, between seeing those two.  So the Universe is tying the meaning of the “Elm” symbol to the 411 message.

This is just PART of what I’ve seen today — the synchronicity is so prolific sometimes.  It’s like it’s growing to a much higher “intensity” in my life.  So awesome, so amazing — the tree symbolism is so cool!  I’m just trying to convey to those who think I dream all this up or something that this life is so magical, but it only becomes so when we open our eyes to it… 

The thing is, I’ve seen things like this for years, but what’s different and so exciting in this moment is the time factor — it’s happening so much more quickly.  Like on “Magic Monday,” I was stunned to see the 411’s just ping-ping-ping like that, within minutes of each other — just like the “Elm” and today’s “411.”  That’s a rush, even for someone who already knows the magic of it all :)

And the more we see it, the more we see it :)  Sorry I typed this so fast, it’s kind of a jumbled mess and sooo much left out, but I just wanted to share the tree thing :) … and the magic.  This reality is not at all what MOST PEOPLE THINK.  It’s in no way mediocre, it is totally magical…we are totally magical.  BUT, the way it works…if a magician (the way the Tarot references us) believes this reality is all mediocre, then mediocre it is – we’re Magicians :)  We always get to choose (will) — and that’s something I “heard” often when I first began to do readings.  “It’s your choice.”  It’s always our choice as to what reality we create.  It really is all just a different kind of a ”dream” :) 

Now we just need to discover why we’re creating a “dream” where we’re manipulated, controlled and enslaved for the enrichment of others – while this amazing dream slips through our fingers…  Hint, it’s all rooted in fear, especially the fear of “death” from this dream, and simply taking it all too seriously…

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I can hear a choir of certain individuals spewing things like, “Well, I went to public schools, and I did gist fine…self-esteem, puleez.”  Uh, yeah okay.  I have to admit, there’s a part of me that wants to reference such people as well, idiots, but really that’s not necessarily the case.  The fact is we’ve been programmed, brainwashed, into accepting all this controlling crap — and gawd forbid that we should question any of it.  Our school system is just one of our multitudinous controlling systems, but it’s one that packs the biggest punch after religion, in my view.  They grab us when we’re just babes and fill our little minds and hearts with energy (thoughts, beliefs…fears) that governs the rest of our lives…  Read more about that here.  Even as adults, we continue to draw from that energy (both conscious and subconscious) and create our lives with it, with those “beliefs.” 

Dove

From John Gatto’s “Dumbing Us Down”
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In his speech, “The Seven-Lesson Schoolteacher,” Gatto describes the seven lessons that are taught in all public schools by all teachers in America, whether they know it or not.  He writes:

The first lesson I teach is confusion. Everything I teach is out of context.  I teach the un-relating of everything.  I teach dis-connections….Even in the best of schools a close examination of curriculum and its sequences turns up a lack of coherence, full of internal contradictions….Confusion is thrust upon kids by too many strange adults, each working along with only the thinnest relationship with each other, pretending, for the most part, to an expertise they do not possess….In a world where home is only a ghost, because both parents work…or because something else has left everybody too confused to maintain a family relation, I teach you how to accept confusion as your destiny.

The second lesson I teach is class position….The children are numbered so that if any get away they can be returned to the right class….My job is to make them like being locked together with children who bear numbers like their own.…If I do my job well, the kids can’t even imagine themselves somewhere else, because I’ve shown them how to envy and fear the better classes and how to have contempt for the dumb classes….That’s the real lesson of any rigged competition like school.  You come to know your place.

The third lesson I teach is indifference….When the bell rings I insist they drop whatever it is we have been doing and proceed quickly to the next work station.  They must turn on and off like a light switch….Bells inoculate each undertaking with indifference.

The fourth lesson I teach is emotional dependency.  By stars and red checks, smiles and frowns, prizes, honors, and disgraces, I teach kids to surrender their will to the predestinated chain of command.

The fifth lesson I teach is intellectual dependency….It is the most important lesson, that we must wait for other people better trained than ourselves, to make the meanings of our lives….[Only], the teacher can determine what my kids must study, or rather, only the people who pay me can make those decisions, which I then enforce.  If I’m told that evolution is a fact instead of a theory, I transmit that as ordered, punishing deviants who resist what I have been told to tell them to think….Successful children do the thinking I assign them with a minimum of resistance and a decent show of enthusiasm….Bad kids fight this, of course, even though they lack the concepts to know what they are fighting, struggling to make decisions for themselves about what they will learn and when they will learn it…Fortunately there are tested procedures to break the will of those who resist; it is more difficult, naturally, if the kids have respectable parents who come to their aid, but that happens less and less in spite of the bad reputation of schools.  No middle-class parents I have ever met actually believe that their kid’s school is one of the bad ones.  No one single parent in twenty-six years of teaching.

The sixth lesson I teach is provisional self-esteem….The lesson of report cards, and tests is that children should not trust themselves or their parents but should instead rely on the evaluation of certified officials.  People need to be told what they are worth.

The seventh lesson I teach is that one can’t hide.  I teach students they are always watched, that each is under constant surveillance by myself and my colleagues….The meaning of constant surveillance and denial of privacy is that no one can be trusted, that privacy is not legitimate.

Source:  http://www.johntaylorgatto.com/bookstore/dumbdnblum1.htm

 

Free Homeschooling (link from Gatto’s site)

 

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I know it’s not a particularly attractive bird, but the Vulture is, oddly enough, called “the peace eagle.”  I just learned that yesterday.  This totem came to me in a big way yesterday. 

We were having this event at work, a few hundred people were congregated outside.  I was sitting at my desk, but I’m right at the front and can see everything outside (glass walls).  The event was about to conclude, and all of a sudden this massive number of vultures appeared over the crowd.  I tried to count them, but they were swirling around and it was just too many to count.  I’d guess maybe 10 or 15 vultures. 

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Vulture Totem Interpretations…

Death and Rebirth
New Vision

The Vulture is the symbol of death and rebirth,
the mother symbol,
and represents purification.
For those with this totem,
you will be noticed more for what you do than
how you appear.

Vulture or Condor
teaches us how to soar above our limitations.
It is linked to the Griffin.
This Totem is a permanent totem; once it enters your life
it will be with you always, through your numerous lifetimes.

You may start to see auras and colors around people;
Vulture can help teach you how to accomplish this through patience and vision.

Vultures teach you how to soar without using much energy,
how to ride the thermal winds instead of flapping.
Go with the flow.
Use your own energy powerfully and efficiently.

Vulture is associated with the sense of smell and aromatherapy is a good tool
to use to connect with this Totem.

The Vulture promises us that no matter how difficult things are at the moment,
rescue and change are imminent.

Soar above the drudgeries of every day life through spirit.
And Vulture/Condor is there to protect you in this journey.

Source: http://www.linsdomain.com/totems/pages/vulture.htm

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More Vulture totem intepretations:

http://www.wildspeak.com/vilturj/totems/wvulture.html

http://westmanpreacher.blogspot.com/2007/09/vulture-as-totem.html

http://www.sayahda.com/cyc5.html

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It freaked me out, because that’s the Universe speaking to me in a big way.  I’ve gotten the vulture totem in the past, but it was usually just one or two of them.  Geez, it makes me wonder what’s about to happen.  The date I’d been getting on “Magic Monday” is rapidly approaching and I’m wondering if this totem is pointing to this day.  It also reminds me of the message I’d gotten earlier this year about “pain, resurrection and then peace,” as well as the recent dream with the camels and the fox.

I’m not thrilled about the need for more pain in my healing journey, but I got another message last night that may have been pointing to that “pain,” and it’s aligned with what I figured this previous message spoke of.  I’ve had this one book for years and have been trying to get myself to read it recently.  It’s about healing one’s eyesight naturally, it’s called “Take Off Your Glasses and See” by Jacob Liberman.  (Note: In no way did the mention of “new vision” in the above Vulture totem interpretation spur me to this book on healing one’s eyesight — in fact, I just noticed that synchronicity in posting it here today.)

Last night I finally picked it up.  I did as I often do with books, before opening, I asked to be shown the most important part in the book for me at this time.  When I opened it, there was an emphasis on the importance of both pages.  Here’s a potent excerpt from those pages, the first thing I read on the left page…

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 …”we spend years resisting exactly what we need in order to cure our ‘nonexistent incurable disorders.’ 

Since we spend many years avoiding those difficult feelings, it can be quite a challenge at first to acknowledge them.  However when we begin to feel them fully, painful, self-defeating emotional patterns actually do begin to shift.  Emotional healing seems to take place as we allow ourselves to feel our deepest pain.  You could say that this process is like allowing a fever to run its course rather than suppressing it with aspirin.”

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It seems apparent to me that this is the pain that was referenced in that earlier message.  I feel like I have scratched the surface of feeling this pain, but there’s so much from my past… It’s overwhelming.  And my anger seems to be what I’m most able to bring up … I don’t think I’ve ever allowed myelf to feel grief and related emotions …  That’s probably because I feel strong when I feel my anger, and like most people, I very much don’t like feeling vulnerable and weak, as those other emotions seem to represent.  Ya’ know, “strong” people just “shake off” those types of things, like an idiot told me in the past, heh  { Update:  In re-reading this, I’d very much like to delete that last statement per the “idiot” thing, but I prefer to be honest, to allow myself to have that honest expression, and to give less of a damn what people think of me for it.  To those who would judge me for being so “imperfect,” bite me, I’m human…oh, and have a nice day, lol ;) }

A little synchronicity with the aspirin.  A guy yesterday during the above-mentioned event came up to me, said he had a headache, and asked me if I had an aspirin…  I had a great day yesterday, but kept seeing the number 5 a lot.  I turned back to see the title of the chapter where I’d opened the eyesight book.  It is Chapter 5, “Seeing Through the Fear”  I had a terrible anxiety attack last night, lasting a few hours, as usual.  As enjoyable as the event was yesterday, I never realize that such things, the number of people, the energy of it all, are overwhelming me… 

More from the two pages…

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“Think of the last time you felt really uncomfortable.  Recall that feeling as vividly as you can.  Re-experience it as completely as possible.  What happened to trigger that feeling? What was your automatic response?”

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Geez, I could think of several of these moments yesterday.  About the only time I don’t feel them is when I’m alone.  When I first arrived at work, a girl that relieves me for breaks was at my desk and the guys were around the desk chatting with her.  I felt threatened.  Why the hell was she at my desk at this time of day? (I do like her and there was a good reason that she was there.)  …  But I didn’t show my insecure feelings, quite the contrary.  I exuded confidence, chimed right in with the conversation, was joking around, and immediately got everyone to laughing.  Even so, that was likely the first “straw” on the camel’s back of my anxiety attack last night.  Then my boss seemed like he was angry with me (of course, I always think that, lol), and I often think this just because he walks passed my desk without speaking (several times per day, he’s busy for gawd’s sake!).  Geez.  And when guys, especially strangers – or just people — get close to me.  And when this one guy from the event yesterday was “hitting” on me, trying to get me to go out with him, very uncomfortable.  I never know what to say when I totally don’t want to go out with someone, a very unnerving situation for me…  Lordy, everything makes me UNCOMFORTABLE.  An intuitive in my past told me that I’m pretty much always in “fight or flight” mode…  I’ve just learned to live with it.  So where do ya’ start with all those uncomfortable situations?  Overwhelming.  I think that’s why I don’t.

What concerns me though is by not doing so, I fuel the likelihood of repeating painful patterns.  More from the pages…

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“Like vision problems, our most uncomfortable feelings are chronic.  They keep coming back until we realize that the problem isn’t outside ourselves, in the other person or the external events.  The outside events simply create a resonance, a self-recognition, in our vibrational field.  …

“Now think back to that painful experience or any other difficult experience with a strong emotional charge.  Have those feelings come up again since then?  How long did it take before you had those feelings again?  Then, no matter what changes you decided to make after the first experience, did you eventually get into another situation that felt similar? 

Usually before you know it, you become involved in another experience with the same feeling.  This cycle can continue indefinitely.  How can we learn to shift out of those blocked places?  Sometimes it seems that the harder we try, the more stuck we feel.  But there is a remedy:  awareness. 

…  Awareness is simply a matter of experiencing every moment of life as fully as possible.  Greater awareness does not happen when we try to pay close attention — that effort actually requires a narrowing of one’s focus.  True awareness is an expansive, effortless process. 

Humans have developed a variety of wonderful tricks to avoid being “in the moment.”  Eastern gurus say that the majority of our mental and physical activities arise from the urge to distract ourselves from our awareness rather than out of any truly purposeful need.  I’ve found that the desire to avoid seeing life fully (and therefore feeling life fully) is also the fundamental origin of vision problems.  Most people become bored, anxious, or uncomfortable when they have to sit quietly for even a few minutes … those disconcerting feelings are why we continually seek distractions, and why the Eastern spiritual traditions place so much emphasis on meditation.”

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Hmmm, this reminds me of a guy I know who can’t sit still for 5 minutes.  I’m sadly so much like that guy, and that being the case, I’ve got a lot of healing to do, lol ;)  This morning I was looking at a “coffee table” book I’m going to give to a friend at work next week.  I kept looking for this one beautiful picture that I like so much.  I couldn’t find it, it was annoying, I fanned through the book several times looking for it to no avail.  Finally, I stopped my wild searching and with a nano-second’s worth of energy, asked to be directed to the pic that I sought.  I closed the book and, as always, I poked a fingernail into the book’s pages randomly.  I opened it to a lovely picture of purple flowers.  I said, “No, I like this picture, but it’s not the one.”  I turned the page (one page) and there it was, the beautiful picture I had been seeking :) 

Hmmm, the answers are so close, we just need to settle down from all our fearing and wild seeking, and just ask, and trust that our healing, the beauty, is just a page away ;)

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I was just reading an old post I did on a book that I feel everyone should read — that is, those who are so very tired of being on a hamster wheel that never gets them to where they wish to be, wondering where’s the happiness, the freedom…   It’s called “The Paradigm Conspiracy.”  My previous post includes an overview of the book (note, the bolded areas were my doing). 

As I was reading over this overview, thoughts came up about a blog I was frequenting on here a while back — trying to tweak the minds of a group of rabid skeptics.  I was sharing a few of my experiences with them, particularly with the Tarot.  Of course, it mattered not that they had zero experience in this regard (and I’ve now spent about a decade almost incessantly using the Tarot), they still scoffed at the prospect that what I spoke was the truth.  Since they’d already warmed up to me a bit, they first tried to be charitable and suggested that I was imagining all of this (heh), but it was clear that if that wasn’t it, dishonesty had to be.  

I tried to not let it annoy me — I s’pose I asked for it by sharing such things with people who believe nothing that their science tells them they shouldn’t believe.  I remember posting my Edison post (where people mocked Edison — scientists, and other lofty ones) on that thread, and there was a brief pause … then one of them came back with something like, “Yeah, but those Edison things could be proved by science.”  At that point, I moved on, because it was clear their minds weren’t budging — but I was like, huh?  Then, why were highly regarded scientists among those who scoffed at and mocked Edison? …

My next thoughts were about a guy in my past.  My cards have actually referenced him as a “fool” (several times) in the negative sense (but there is also a positive take on the fool in the Tarot).  The way he thinks boggles my mind, but I don’t think he’s that much different than many — thinking that “success” is all about how much money you can make.  And so this guy is consumed by his work.  He sees no other way to become his version of a success.  I remember a few years ago when he started working this job, I told him that it was a prison, that it wasn’t worthy of losing his health over.  I heard from him recently — he said he’d been in the hospital a couple of times recently per lack of sleep…   What he doesn’t seem to get is that the present dictates the future.  If it isn’t balanced, the future won’t be.  If you’re not happy in the present, you won’t be in the future either.  The thing is, you can do something in the present that might not be all that you wish for, BUT you must BALANCE it with what you do want.  That is, some energy MUST be put towards what you do want.  If you are currently neglecting and abusing your body for some pay-off in the future, there’s no balance in that — so stay tuned for a messed up body in the future.  But hey, you’ll have lotsa money to go to the hospital and docs a lot…

It’s insanity.  Our bodies, our health, are PRICELESS.  Ya’ can’t go out and buy a new body — NO MATTER HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE.  Ask someone who has no sight, but lotsa money what they’d pay for the gift of sight.  Someone with no legs what they’d pay to have them back?  …  And yet so many of us sacrifice our lives, our health, so as to make money — to buy STUFF.  Geez. 

Actually it isn’t insanity, or even stupidity (usually), it’s what the above-mentioned book speaks of.  A kind of brainwashing via “paradigms.”  And I would add that we keep doing this over and over, because the promise of what it supposedly brings (happiness, or even real security, per money/power), never actually happens — but we think (per the paradigms) that it will if we just work a little more, a little harder…  And then maybe ya’ get “there,” but all you discover is that you’ve been a fool…you’ve been duped into sacrificing your precious body, life, health, TRUE HAPPINESS…for a pile of green paper, a false sense of security/safety, a mountain of material stuff that’s momentarily gratifying but ultimately suffocating, and an illusion of power…  All you truly have in those things is NOTHING, but you’ve lost so much in this FINITE life…

It’s time to “wake up.”  And this book is a good place to start :)  Read the overview of the “The Paradigm Conspiracy” here.  And then also realize that you ARE the power, it’s all about what you believe… And it will be those who are endeavoring to overcome the brainwashing that will truly be powerful in the future, not those who continue to put their total focus and efforts in the outer world, all the while destroying their bodies, and consequently dishonoring the real power — within them.

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com   I just synchronously came upon this wonderful article on anger.  I had, only moments before, written similar statements (see my comment under the article). 

I love the article, very empowering information, but I would never reference my anger as, um, “little” anymore than I’d reference fire as our “little friend.”  Both anger and fire are mighty powerful, they can destroy us or save us…  We so very much need to learn to honor, respect, tend to our precious human-ness called “anger.”  Here’s an excerpt from the article.

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“Anger is the most misunderstood and repressed emotions. When you can understand the nature of anger, and are willing to feel it, you can begin to harness a lost power that is key to creating permanent and positive changes in your life. The power of your will, or commonly known as willpower.”

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Peace,
Dove

Update: I had the following in a comment but I like it better here as an “update.” :)

Okay, I’d love to delete the part above where I said I’d “never” reference my anger as “little,” because it seems I have, lol ;) I haven’t read my own articles/blogs in a while, heh :) I was actually taught by a therapist to call them my “little ones” (my emotions) in the process of learning how very real they are. But I dunno, when it comes to my anger in particular, how explosive I have experienced it, it definitely seems inappropriate to call it “little.”

I have to admit I don’t like referencing them in that way, and again, was doing so in previous writings drawing from what I had been taught to call them. But to me, “little” implies insignificant, and I have learned they are very significant. I now prefer calling them something like “my precious ones” :) Very precious — and very powerful. I have seen clearly what can manifest from both the positive and negative expressions of my anger.

Regardless of how we reference it, we should without hesitation embrace our anger, respect it, honor it, endeavor to understand and console it. Because it is a part of us, a very powerful part of us. We can’t just love bits and pieces of ourselves, we must unconditionally love it all, love all that we are. Not to do so, is a sure road to self-destruction.

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Watching ole Charlton Heston (damn, he’s good) play Moses in that movie, “The Ten Commandments.”   A movie I’ve seen so many times since I was a kid.  I’ve always liked it, only now it’s a blessing that I no longer feel even a hint of fear in watching it, unlike when I was a bible-pounding kid.  I see it so differently now…

That line jumped out at me that the Pharaoh spoke.  He was angry that “the slave’s god” was clearly kicking their god’s ass, lol ;)  And to his priests or whatever, he angrily said something like, “You created the gods — to play upon the fear of the people.”  Indeed, all “gods” are fabricated for this reason.  That’s probably the best and most telling line of the movie.

Sitting here watching this, good-gawd, no wonder most people are so horrified of “God.”  Another line that got me, Moses telling his former love that he couldn’t save her child (firstborn of the Pharaoh) because he was “nothing without God.”  Again, no wonder with such things spoken in this type of movie — watching it over and over, year after year (more people watching it than reading the bible) — no wonder we are so self-loathing.  No wonder our world looks the way it does, no wonder we endeavor to destroy it, ourselves.  We believe we are nothing.  So sad. 

It’s all so misconstrued, twisted around into BS — “to play upon the fear of the people.”  No, Moses is nothing without “God,” because Moses IS “God.”  We all are, this is what Moses meant.  This body is a shell, nothing — it is the “spirit” within that is real, is “God.”  And it is us who have personified this thing called ”God” into a fiery-eyed one, separate from us — who supposedly loves us one minute, but is highly wrathed up about us the next. 

The scene that really gets me in the gut is where they are eating the herbs and bread.  Sitting there hearing (trying to ignore) the unnerving cries from a distance of the mothers and fathers watching their children die.  One man in the house with Moses’ is singing!  Yee-haw, rejoice — God’s green stuff is killing children!  Good-gawd.  And then the woman (mother of the Pharaoh, former mother of Moses) is pained by the cries and says, “They’re my people.”  Another of Moses’ people leans over to her and says sweetly, “We’re all God’s people.”  Uh.  It’s okay, hon, God knows what he’s doing in killing those children.  Geez.

When ya’ know it’s all symbolic, this movie is so much easier to watch — yet, at the same time, unnerving in the realization that so many of us believe this represents literal truth.  Moses says that he cannot save the Pharaoh’s firstborn, that the Pharaoh brought it upon himself with HIS OWN WORDS.  Not God’s words, but the Pharaoh’s own words.  Meaning, we create our own reality.  The Pharaoh wished this upon others, and since we are all God, he wished it upon himself… (”karma”)

All the children supposedly being killed by the green death-smoke — it wasn’t about death, it was about transformation.  Again, symbolic.  Interestingly, green is the color of the heart chakra, it’s about healing, it’s about love.  We “die” to (become free of) our old selves when we heal our hearts, and we become something new (transformation, aka, “death”). 

And the absurdity of this Pharaoh not letting the people go after Moses shows him some heady stuff from our “God” :)  I mean, geez, he changed the water to frickin’ blood, even the container of water that the Pharaoh held.  No water for seven days, then the three days of darkness, and that cool fiery hail ;)  How stupid could the Pharaoh be to not give Moses whatever the hell he wanted, lol   Not reality — it is all symbolic messages.   The Pharaoh represents our fear, and how our fear has an irrational death-grip on us (”let my people go.”)  And we allow our fear to have this hold on us — represented by Moses leaving each time.

It’s ALL about us, collectively, and individually.  We are very much NOT “nothing,” we are God :)  We are both Moses and the Pharaoh — it is fear, and only fear, that enslaves us.  We need only to “worship” (love) and believe in the “God” that is within us, that is us.  We need only to face the ”Pharaoh” (fear) within us and set ourselves free from it.  Only then will we truly “know God” (love and trust our own hearts) and get to “heaven” (peace, and creating the blissful lives we desire). 

*Yawn*  It’s time to wake up, to snap out of the brainwashing, the fear, that has kept us as slaves.  ”Fear not.”  “There is NOTHING to fear, but fear itself.”  (Pharaoh = Fear, Moses = Love, Freedom)

“Let my people go.”

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Well, it started on Saturday… this Jesus thing, he’s been around me for some reason.  Oh, but he thinks it’s funny that I call him “Jay-sus” lol ;)  Jesus would really be a drag if he had no sense of humor, ya’ know? 

Anyway, I thought nothing more about it after Saturday, but there he was again this morning…  He went shopping with me, heh :)   Today was my errand day.  And it was an exceedingly icky day weatherwise — icy cold, and highly wet, rain or really cold mist all day long.  I shivered as I closed my umbrella and walked into the post office and around the corner to the area where my p.o. box is located. 

Very unusual, a little lady with coal-colored hair appeared outta nowhere, and was opening a box not far from mine.  I said something about the icky weather and she said something sweetly about being grateful :)  “Yeah, you’re right…” I responded.  Then, also out of the blue, she said to me, ”Remember Jesus is always with you, no matter where you go.” :)  That really stoked me, since having had the Jesus energy around me just a coupla days before.  I just smiled at her, thinking “You are Jesus, sweetie.” 

My next stop, minutes later, was the grocery store…  As I looked for a park, I noticed where someone had written on the front of a car, “I (heart symbol) you.”  That was so close to the mention of Jesus, I couldn’t help but think that was him talking to me again ;)  { Update: Hey, I was just re-reading this, and realized that I hadn’t tied this “I (heart) you” with my other Jesus post where I noted that I had sang “Jesus loves me…” as a little one…ah, that just makes me smile all over again :) }  Throughout the day I was seeing and hearing things that aligned with this energy…  even hearing “Jesus” a couple of times on the radio as it scanned.  At one point, I felt I was chatting with him in my mind, mostly joking with each other :) 

Then I started seeing the number 16 everywhere, that usually represents, for me, the Tower card in the Tarot (number 16).  Interestingly, I had a day last year around this time when I began seeing the 16 like that, but that one last year was unnerving, I felt the Tower inside me, I shook inside (like the Tower), it frightened me … and sure enough, it proved to be a warning of something not-so-good about to happen…  But I lived through it, and came out of it for the better.

But this one today was different, I felt no fear, and I saw positive things around the 16.  So I felt this, unlike the other, was a positive message.  The Tower card can represent “enlightenment,” and freedom…even just a surprise.  At one point I was in a store, browsing, and I began seeing it again on items in the store.   I felt I was about to get a “surprise,” and felt I might be seeing someone that I knew…  And sure enough, just before I walked out of the store, in walked a co-worker I never would have imagined seeing there — it really did shock me (surprise)  :) 

At the end of the day, in the parking lot of my last stop for “errand day,” I was backing out and saw flashing lights at a distance, an emergency vehicle.  As I got on the main road for home, more emergency vehicles (I don’t think they were related to the other), about four of them, I had to pull over a couple of times…  These also reflect “Tower” energy…but again, I noted that I felt no fear inside from them…  I glanced at a license plate in front of me that simply said, “Sun” and that made me smile… that’s the “God/dess” card in the Tarot, a card about much joy.  My favorite card…

I’d gotten a lot of messages through the day like “No problem,” and “Don’t worry.”  So that was comforting.  Also many things that represent intuition, and “magic” and, of course, Jesus is part of that :) 

Still not entirely sure why Jesus has been hanging out with me lately, but I did get a strong message about “Heaven” at one point today.  I’d been getting that the Six of Cups card is related to it.  That is a sweet card that can represent home and joy and peace…  “Jesus” told me that this is “heaven” — it’s all the same thing – peace, “home,” joy — “Heaven.”  Ahh, so that’s what it meant when I heard years ago, at a climactic point in my life, that I was “getting closer to home.”  Home, peace, joy — “heaven” :)  I hope Jesus’ visit means I’m just almost there — I think so :)   I’m feeling very “blessed” lately…

Thanks Jay-sus, I heart you too *muah* ;)

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I’m very much appreciating a new blog I’ve recently come upon about indigos and our spiritual path and all — very informative and helpful.  A recent post on there speaks of not allowing others to offend us, and I agree with much of what it’s saying.  Even so, I feel some tend to take such advice and simply push down their anger in an effort to follow it.  That’s a very harmful practice.  We should never push down or deny our anger in an effort to be “saintly” or to “not be offended.” 

No matter what anyone says, anger is NOT an “evil” thing.  It is a human thing, and if it weren’t of benefit to us (at times) then it would not be such a significant part of this human experience.  And given that it is a part of us, we should not dishonor it, dishonor ourselves, by denying HOW WE TRULY FEEL.  That doesn’t mean we should attack others with it, or even necessarily let them know that they have angered us.  Our lives are, we are, ever-changing – and consequently, no strict rules should be applied.  Our freedom and peace and a joyful life depend upon our trusting our own hearts in EACH MOMENT as to what is right for us. 

Obviously there are situations where it isn’t advisable to show our anger, but we should still acknowledge it to ourselves, and express it later in a healthy way.  One of my first posts on here was about this, how a Buddhist friend was enduring colon cancer…and I feel certain this is a result of denying one’s anger for a lot of years, “not being offended” one time too many. 

I think the primary thing to remember though is that if there are others around us who are saying abusive things to us, then we should realize there is something about our own energy that is creating this.  And unless that changes within us, this person (and others) will continue to abuse us in this way.   And if we are living with (or married to) such a person, then that’s an indicator that this energy is potent within us — that is, we are not loving ourselves so much.  And healing this energy WITHIN US is of the highest priority to stop the abuse… 

We can consciously “love” ourselves, and at the same time still have unhealed energy in our subconscious that continues to draw this abusive energy to us.  But until we heal it, allowing the abuse (verbal or whatever) to continue — and pushing down our anger — is not a good thing.  Ignoring such things will not make them go away, and more often than not, doing so simply allows the problem to grow worse. 

Additionally, we are human beings, so no matter how “enlightened” we become, our energy will fluctuate (change is our nature) with higher points of self-love and lower ones.  At the those “lower” times, we will draw a bit of that abusive, “lower” energy (like attracts like). 

If we realize this, then when others are less than loving toward us in those moments, we can be aware of it being a passing thing (because it is simply a reflection of a ”momentary” thing within us — not something deep within that needs seriously healing), then it is much easier to “not be offended” and just let it go.  Even so, even with these little “barbs,” (not on-going abuse) it is still not wise to dishonor our anger.  Anger, like all emotion, will build within if not acknowledged and processed routinely.  Go ahead and allow yourself to be “offended” (angry), but “smile” at the unhealed one…then later go work it out in the gym or write about it at home or do some other anger-releasing ritual (dancing is good too).  Think about that moment of anger, then do the dance of your choice :)  Process it to whatever degree you intuit is needed.  Then you’ll be able to truly let it go, and hug the person the next day :)

Peace,
Dove

Update:  I want to put an excerpt here from the blog I mentioned above (one of my first posts on WordPress), from the emclear article…

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It’s still 1988. I’m searching. I come into contact with a teacher who seems to be presenting Eastern philosophy in a new way. I already know much about Eastern philosophy, so much that I hadn’t read any for years, but all of what I had read was the old school, if I may use that term. The old school never really recognized negative feelings - just be spiritual, it said. If you felt angry, be loving. In other words, suppress your anger. This new teacher had things to say that I had never heard. Maybe I was just never ready to hear before now, but the revolution was beginning within me.

I started having tremendous insights. I realized that a large part of how I saw the world and how I experienced my interactions with others was based on projection. In projection, I would think that someone or something else was responsible for my reaction to them. In other words, I believed that someone or something else was making me angry, lonely, afraid, hateful and so on. What I realized was that these feelings were actually coming from my suppressed emotional subconscious and just attaching to people and circumstances outside myself. Taking it a step further, I could see how I attracted difficult people and circumstances to myself that corresponded to the feelings. Why would I do this, I asked? The answer came that it was in order to bring up the suppressed feelings for clearing.

Source: www.emclear.com

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Someone asked me yesterday if I could teach her how to connect with her heart.  My first thought was I don’t think I can teach something I haven’t learned so well myself.  It’s a journey — and mine began about a decade ago.  My own intuitive guides strongly advised me to meditate (every day), but most of us resist doing this, and so have I.  It’s only been in the last few years that I’ve begun to meditate with any regularity.  But it is, without question, crucial to connecting with one’s heart, and to discovering one’s own power…  The resistance is what makes it a “journey” :) …  an invariably rough one.  Our “de-programming” isn’t going to happen overnight, and there’s no book, class or guru that will make it happen jiffy quick, heh ;) 

Many “Tower” events will invariably be part of this journey — that’s where we resist, but our higher self wants freedom, and this part of us will send a “lightning bolt” to come crashing into our comfort zone(s).  That is, whatever is holding us back will begin to crumble…  

Our excessive materialism is holding us back.  For those who are still fully invested in the illusion, of this materialistic BS, still hungering to have a zillion-inch screen TV and all the latest hi-tech toys, giving every minute of one’s life to make more money so as to consume more and more, stay-tuned for that bolt :)   It isn’t about some scary “god” forcing this upon us, it is the core of us wanting freedom from the chains of this illusion — that we’ve created, and are greatly suffering because of.  Once the initial pain of that lightning bolt, and the destruction therein of that which imprisons us (the “Tower”), we then begin to feel so much better, so much lighter…  But again, this will not happen overnight.   It’s a journey, and there are no short-cuts.  If it’s easy, you aren’t doing it :)  Remember Frodo in “Lord of the Rings”?  Ya’ gotta destroy “the ring.”  Truly connecting with one’s heart, it is like Frodo’s journey.

Simplicity…this is how we begin to connect with our hearts.  Clearing away all the glop, inside and out – material, mental, emotional…all the things we have piled upon our hearts.  Things we’ve put ahead of that which we truly desire, things (and people) that we’ve put above taking mega-good care of ourselves, things that are suffocating those things we truly love, that which stifles our creativity, our passions…  All of those things are a prison, and deep down we wish to be free.  So we either consciously remove these things, or…the energy that is “deep down” within us will do it in a more dramatic way (the “Tower”).  Note, to get a taste of the Tower, you can do a google search for “Tower Tarot.”  This Tarot card represents freedom and “enlightenment,” but a Tower experience is a challenging way to become free of that which imprisons us — a change that seems to be forced upon us.  We resist this MAJOR change in our lives, because we are blinded to that which enslaves us.

Self-care is how we begin to connect with our hearts.  Self-love, self-respect, self-understanding…  When we heal our hearts, we will then move into them :)  It all begins with routinely looking within. 

My advice is to begin meditating daily, even for just 5 minutes.  That will begin the process.  Self-care — exercise, meditate, do yoga, eat well, rest, sleep, play, set goals, “pray” (ask your higher self for answers), affirm, establish boundaries…take care of you FIRST…  When we truly fall in love with ourselves, truly — then all the rest will fall into place.  That might sound too simple, and would be, except we resist…  So buckle up for a wild, but quite magical ride :)  Moving into one’s heart is moving into their power, real power.

As I was pondering this person’s question about connecting to her heart, I came upon this great post on 2012 called, “The World Will Not End in 2012,” and I honed in on these paragraphs from it…

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“The greatest wisdom is in simplicity,” Mr. Barrios
advised before leaving Santa Fe. “Love, respect,
tolerance, sharing, gratitude, forgiveness. It’s not
complex or elaborate. The real knowledge is free. It’s
encoded in your DNA. All you need is within you. Great
teachers have said that from the beginning. Find your
heart, and you will find your way.”

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“Anthropologists visit the temple sites,” Mr. Barrios
says, “and read the inscriptions and make up stories
about the Maya, but they do not read the signs
correctly. It’s just their imagination… Other people
write about prophecy in the name of the Maya. They say
that the world will end in December 2012. The Mayan
elders are angry with this. The world will not end. It
will be transformed. The indigenous have the
calendars, and know how to accurately interpret it,
not others.”

Source: http://indigolifecenter.wordpress.com/2008/02/28/the-world-will-not-end-in-2012/

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Again, simplicity, as we begin to heal we will begin to hunger for it — simplicity.  And we are the world :)  We are changing, “transforming.”  And holding tightly onto the old will just cause us more suffering.  We don’t really want it anymore, but we don’t consciously realize this…yet.  

I want to interject here that we should allow NOTHING to put fear in our hearts.  Let nothing I say here, or anything in the above article, put fear in your heart.  The “light” and the “dark” that this article speaks of is within us, it’s ALL within us — let no one tell you that there is some power or force outside of you.  You are the power — in your world.  Always remember, “Believe and it shall be so” and always trust your own heart, your own intuition, your own truth.  Anything else is giving your power away, giving it to someone or something outside of yourself.  And that’s how we became imprisoned in the first place. 

Additionally, to heal one’s heart (absolute requirement to connecting or moving into it) we need to stop blaming others for things that we’ve manifested in our own lives (we create it all).  When we begin to point the finger, we should immediately visualize a mirror in front of us :)  It’s all us, everythng and everyone around us, is us.  We can learn so much from simply realizing this, and taking actions to CHANGE US, and give up the need to change and blame others.  Since we are all of it, when we change us, the rest naturally changes :)

Peace,
Dove

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Colloidal Silver, it’s a good thing :)  The blue guy was taking quarts of his own homemade stuff for years (stupid), and that ridiculous use of the silver (something that’s been used effectively for thousands of years) is why he’s now blue (note, not dead, just blue, heh), and according to NaturalNews (formerly NewsTarget), even his blue-ness is reversible.

Dove

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Read the article here…

http://www.naturalnews.com/022728.html