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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I’ve been getting the number three like mad in the last 24 hours.  It seems to be tied into the “celebrate” message I received from opening a book.  In the Tarot, that message would be conveyed with the Three of Cups.  What I didn’t mention in that post is that I “heard” some words before I opened the book, “pain, resurrection, peace…”  And the book’s message seemed to align with those words.  I didn’t wanna think about anymore pain, so I omitted mentioning that part.  Just not a happy thought, that we’ve gotta move through the pain before we get to that wonderful peace.

Was feelin’ pretty blue today and wrote a lengthy rhyme about it on my “Write Off the Top of the Head” thread.  Was “drawing” some cards just now online and drew a version of the Three of Swords, a card I invariably dread seeing.  But this image really grabbed my heart.  Oh-ma-gawd, those eyes — those are the kinda eyes I was talking about in my “Divine Eyes” post.  Vulnerable eyes, so very vulnerable they are, we are, when we’re in pain. 

I’m so proud of myself, I did some crying today :) and this card, this awesome image, it helped me to cry some more.  And it wasn’t tears from my own pain, but that face, those eyes, so precious — it made me cry thinking of someone else hurting like that, so deeply…knowing how tired they are of it all, so frustrated by their own patterns, at a loss as to how to overcome them, how to heal them.  And so they keep repeating them, continuing that sad cycle of pain, such a prison…  I just wanna hug that heart so much.

I just can’t get over those eyes, I love that image.  Here’s a link to it.

http://www.aeclectic.net/tarot/project/4/03_swords.shtml

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And here are a couple of  interpretations for the three….
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Three: The spiritual meaning of number Three deals with magic, intuition, fecundity, and advantage. The number Three invokes expression, versatility, and pure joy of creativity. Three is also a time identifier as it represents Past, Present and future. Consecutive Three’s in your life may symbolize the need to express yourself creatively, or consider your present directional path in relation to your past events and future goals. Three’s may also represent promising new ventures, assurance of cooperation from others you may require help from, and Threes typically symbolize reward and success in most undertakings.

Source:  http://www.whats-your-sign.com/spiritual-meaning-of-numbers.html

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Three (3)

The third dimension - we do things in threes so they will manifest in our physical realm.It’s roots stem from the meaning of multiplicity. Creative power; growth. Three is a moving forward of energy, overcoming duality, expression, manifestation and synthesis. Three is the first number to which the meaning “all” was given. It is The Triad, being the number of the whole as it contains the beginning, a middle and an end.

The power of three is universal and is the tripartide nature of the world as heaven, earth, and waters. It is human as body, soul and spirit. Notice the distinction that soul and spirit are not the same. They are not. Three is birth, life, death. It is the beginning, middle and end. Three is a complete cycle unto itself. It is past, present, future.

The symbol of three is the triangle. Three interwoven circles or triangles can represent the indissoluble unity of the three persons of the trinity. Others symbols using three are: trident, fleur-de-lis, trefoil, trisula, thunderbolt, and trigrams.

The astral or emotional body stays connected to the physically body for three days after death. There is scientific evidence that the brain, even when all other systems are failing takes three days to register complete shutdown.

There are 3 phases to the moon. Lunar animals are often depcited as 3 legged.

Three is the heavenly number, representing soul, as four represents body. Together the two equal seven (3+4=7 ) and form the sacred hebdomad. The 3×4=12 representing the signs of the Zodiac and months of the year.

Pythagorean three means completion.

There are three wishes, genies have three wishes, three leprecons, three prince or princesses, three witches, three weird sisters among others.

Source:  http://www.crystalinks.com/numerology2.html

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{Dove:  I started seeing the 3 everywhere (everywhere) last night, right after posting this comment on another’s blog…  I was responding to the quote indicated, from another on that thread.}
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No, we definitely don’t need religion, and certainly not the fear-based interpretations of that old book, and the mega-controlling systems that sprouted from them…

“God said ‘where three or more are gathered in my name, that is where my church is’.”

Me, Myself and I (am) = 3

The Body/Heart, the Mind, the Spirit = 3
(”The Father, the Son, The Holy Ghost”)

The Earth, the Sun, the Sky/Air = 3

She, He, Love = 3

Paintbrush, Paint, Artist = 3

The 3 in the Tarot is the Empress, she’s about love and creativity (she adores Nature, animals, gardening, creating…she is the perfect “Mother”). She nurtures/loves things to life.

We are the Seed, the Garden, the Flower (3)

“Church,” “God,” “Love,” “Passion” “Joy” “Creative/Spiritual/Intuitive Energy” … “Everything,” is within us.

Peace,
Dove

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  This post is actually about the number 5 :)  Geez, this number is haunting me!  Especially right in this moment, I keep seeing it EVERYWHERE, and I have been seeing it and the number 16 prolifically in the last several days.  The 16 (Tower card in the Tarot) is also a number I allow to rattle me – I allow both of these numbers, 5, 16 to spur fear in me.  And the thing is, the number five is very much a part of me.  Today’s the 23rd, which equals 5, and I was also born on the 23rd (one of my 5’s), my first and second given names have 5 letters.  The number 5 is very strong in my numerology…   and gawd knows, my life has certainly reflected the 5 energy. 

The most potent thing that the 5 represents is change — and per the Tarot, change that isn’t very comfortable, but I think most significant changes generally aren’t.  I s’pose because I’ve experienced so much of the negative side of the 5, it’s difficult for me to see the good in it.  But there is good (”God”) in it, just like there’s good in everything.  The big “God” is everything, both the “Devil” and the good side of All That Is, ”God,” :)  Consequently “God” encompasses both sides of the coin.  Everything has both “good/positive” and “bad/negative” energy (”God”) in it.  Everything.  No matter how generally good (Star/Sun) a Tarot card is, there is still a negative to it…and no matter how negative a certain card generally is (Devil) there is still a positive side to it.  Numbers, astrological signs, Tarot cards, people, gods, and goddesses :) — everything and everyone has the energy of both positive and negative within them.  Love is just the top side of the coin, with hate on the other side.  Same with peace and conflict.  One is simply meaningless without the other.  That seems like a no-brainer, but it’s difficult at times to remember.

I am passionate about freedom, and our basic human right to have freedom.  The 5 represents freedom.  Given that, you’d think I’d love the 5.  But again, it spooks me because I have such a habit of seeing it in the negative.  There’s not one generally “good” card in the Tarot with a 5 on it.  The 5 of cups almost always represents sadness, loss, maybe having been abandoned by a loved one.  The 5 of swords (almost always) represents wicked conflict, sometimes hatred and war, self-interest in a bad way…  The 5 of coins…loss, fear, insecurity, poverty, ill-health…  The 5 of wands is usually another conflict card, with less venom than the swords card.  And even the 5th major arcana (most significant cards in the Tarot) represents something I, for the most part, deplore — religion and tradition.  The Hierophant, pope — ultimately, the teacher.  Something I’ve been called, and oddly, deplored the idea of as a child (I didn’t know what I wanted to be when I grew up, but I would say, ”I just know it isn’t a teacher!” lol)  The Hierophant often represents rigidity, something or someone that (come hell or highwater) is not going to change.  If I get this card in a future spot, it often means nothing’s happening, nothing’s going to change any time soon.  A “no change” message. 

So where do the cats, dogs, popcorn and foxes come in? lol  Well, in hesitating to write this post, I momentarily left the computer, plopped down in a chair, and clicked on the remote.  And there was my most unfavorite thing on TV, a football game.  Blecky, with a capital “B” ;)  A referee was on the ground for some reason, showing me the number “5″ on his back.  Geez.  Then a swoosh of …  number 18 on a players back, and then I heard the announcer say several words that seemed like gibberish to me, something about “Cats chasing dogs…popcorn…and foxes.”  I dunno.  But it all has meaning, if I would take the time with it…  The 18, I know — it’s the Moon card.  Fear.  Probably reflecting my fear of the 5.  I had just drawn cards asking about this 5 message that the Universe is drowning me in and pulled three major arcana cards, the first was the Magician (the fox is on this one in the Animal-Wise Tarot), then the Temperance card, and then the Empress.  All generally very positive and powerful cards.  A significant time in my life.  A need to bring more balance into my life, a seemingly unending need.  Healing…a need to process “stuff,” my emotions are just all over the place.  It’s like old stuff is coming up and I don’t know what to do with it, it’s overwhelming…  As always, I resist expressing myself, expressing what’s been gnawing on my insides all my life.  Reeking havoc in my life, making it impossible to have genuine, long-lasting relationships with others…and just drawing other angry ones like myself, who experience similar patterns.  Some who hide it better than I with all their syrupy talk with no foundation, others who don’t hide it at all and seem to hate everyone…  And those like me, who seem to vacillate between the two ;) forever seeking that balance and authenticity.

I know like attracts like.  I don’t believe in the “projection” theory :)  Well, I do, sort of, but I think if we have an ongoing connection with someone, there’s a potently similar energy there.  What’s intrigued me are the people I draw to me.  Oh, they all carry anger, no doubt about that — no projection there :)  I think most people carry it, just varying degrees…  But it’s interesting to observe how they each mask their anger.  Some don’t — some are clearly explosive with their anger.  Others claim they aren’t angry, all the while masking it with that passive-aggressive thing or similar.  I think those who recognize that they are angry are at least closing in on the “cure.”  But those who are angry or are still angry despite all their “love talk” and meditation, now those people are more inclined to do the projecting.  One sweet guy I drew a while back, is kinda one of those people.  Very much a “love talk” kinda guy, resisting the anger per his religion’s teachings – he now has colon cancer.  That concerns me per what I discovered with talking to my emotions, and the discovery of my anger living in my stomach…and then becoming depression (”Jake”) in my colon… 

I think we have to go and confront our “5,” maybe live with the 5 for a while to work through it all…  It seems to be crucial so as to get the healing and peace that follows in the number 6.  The 6 of cups is peace…(or it can show a continuing to repeat the patterns of the past).  The 6 of swords, grieving, healing, moving on…  The 6 of coins, giving and receiving, we gotta learn to do both…  The 6 of wands — victory! :)  And the big kahuna, heh, 6th major arcana, the Lover’s card — real love, bay-be! ;)

Unfortunately, we can’t skip the 5 to get to the 6, no reaching the love and peace of the 6, without moving through the anger and hatred of the 5 first.  Many of us try to do this — like religious leaders who wind up on the floor in a fetal position, and priests who harm children in a most vile way…  If we try to sidestep the 5, push down our anger and pain, it will come out sooner or later in some wicked way, often as disease or ill-treatment of others.  See the 5 Tarot cards, they all kinda dance together — they are surely spun from our inability or resistance to change, like many of our leaders, the Hierophant in his/her worst light.  The Hierophant is the teacher, and most of our religious teachers have taught us from fear, because most of our religions are rooted in fear… and we’re paying the price of holding this energy (anger, all ”negative” emotion is rooted in fear), of learning and endeavoring to adhere to all these rigid rules. 

Freedom, a wonderfully positive side of the 5, is not, nor will it ever be about rigid rules.  And without freedom (no rigid rules or religion, negative face of the Hierophant), then there will be no genuine love, the blessed energy of the Lover’s card.

Hmm, well, it’s a little after five, maybe I should go make some popcorn, lighten up a bit ;)

Peace,
Dove

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Well, I just spent so much time on a comment on another thread that I decided I’d post it here for the benefit of whomever might come upon it :)   This comment was spurred by my blog friend, Muse, speaking of my article,  “Words + Emotions = Power”

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Hey, thanks for reading my article, Muse Actually, I didn’t develop that process with my emotions, I learned it from a therapist I was going to in southern Oregon. And I immediately saw the value in it, but I had (and still have) such a strong block to my healing. It’s such a challenge to get myself to do all the things I have seen the value in. I can let myself get to a point where I can’t make myself do anything, just morbidly depressed. And if I finally sit down and “talk/write” to “Jack,” … let him do his raging on paper, even for just a few minutes, I can get up and immediately feel a change for the better — alive and ready to go about the business of living again I can’t emphasize enough how valuable it is…if we can just get ourselves to do it.

And I couldn’t fully elaborate in that article about it…or my wonderful initial experience with it. But I don’t name them, they name themselves

My first experience (with the therapist) was amazing. I know this sounds weird, but they are actually like little beings inside of us, and they can teach us things if we’ll just listen. Not only did they tell me their names, they told me their ages and WHERE THEY LIVE IN MY BODY. Jack is in my stomach (see my pic of “Fire in the Belly”).  Jack is just 17 — he holds back nothing

I connected with these six parts of me, each told me their name (under “hypnosis,” which felt no different than meditating), age and location in the body. And then the therapist asked them questions, and the answers were so beneficial… These six are, Anger, Hurt, Shame, Depression, Fear, and Sentinel.

Again, so many cool things I learned from doing this. But I’ll share just one more. I wasn’t making these names up. And there were several indicators as to the truth of that. The “Hurt” part of me said “Tom” when asked its name, located in my heart. But I remember feeling like it was a girl. Later I found out that it is a girl, a sweet little girl “Tom” was short for “Tomboy,” which I used to be I call her “Tommie” now I feel a rush of emotion just speaking of her…

Okay one more The only other male is my depression, “Jake.” It was interesting… He said he was in my “colo-rectal area.” I repeated back “rectal”? He then strongly emphasized “colo-rectal.” Alrighty then I couldn’t help noticing that both anger (stomach) and depression (colo-rectal) are male. And that the their names are very similar. What’s in the stomach travels to the colo-rectal area, no? Interesting, eh?

Oh, also, I have a basket of books that the Universe has nudged me toward for years, and I haven’t yet really gotten into them. But one book that’s come up strongly is “Waking the Tiger, Healing Trauma” by Peter A. Levine. I’ve read bits and pieces of it, and that’s where I learned how animals shake their fear out. I really should read and study that book.

One final thing Ya’ know how we “accidentally” break something or say something we wish we hadn’t or continue to do something we so don’t want to do, that’s coming from one of them It really is like having little ones within us. We either give them attention, or they’ll “act out” in our lives — hence, the “chaos” we so often experience in our lives. Just like with actual children that haven’t been tended to and cared for properly. It’s kind of unnerving when ya’ think about it, how “they” can momentarily take control of our lives and shake things up and it feels beyond our control…

Dove

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I did this pic a few days ago, but I didn’t post it because I wasn’t sure what it wanted to be called.  What I learned from it was a good lesson as to how nothing is really “bad” or “negative,” that something “good” seems to grow from everything. 

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“Righteous Rends” by Dove, October 2007 

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I’ve said it before, if we always made the supposed “right” decisions and everything was always “positive” and hunky-dory (lol), would we really be getting anything from that?  Aren’t we drawing much joy from the growth via our rocky times?  It just seems we’d have no depth without those rocky times.  How could we ever truly know and enjoy the “good” if we’d never known the “bad.”  Look at Paris Hilton, the girl is fluff, she doesn’t have a clue…even after her harrowing stint in jail, lol ;)  Ya’ can’t help but feel sorry for the girl, because she “has it all” and yet she has nothing, she hasn’t a clue…she’s blind to the blessings of prosperity…because she’s known nothing else.  And so she actually doesn’t truly have it, it doesn’t reach her, it doesn’t bless her with an abundance of gratitude… 

Anyway, a bit of rocky-ness at work the other day spurred me to create this image above.  I’m seeing that the images that come through me when I’m mega-angry are, oddly enough, the best ones in my opinion.  I like them all, but the ones that come from that fresh and raw anger, seem to really grab me, I love them :)  And think about artists who have and do create the most wonderful artworks and songs from those so-called “negative” emotions, depression, deep sadness, anger…  If such beauty can come from these things, how can we feel they are of no value, and be so ready to dispose of them — deny and dishonor them?

Again, I had a hard time coming up with the name for this image that came from my recent anger – a lot of things came to me, but I didn’t feel sure.  I did some Google searches on the “X” and other things I see in it, drew some Tarot cards on it…  Some of the things that came up with this were referencing this image as  Tic-Tac-Toe, and “The Game of Life.”  I saw strategy and love in the x’s (a recent blog elaborating on love symbols and referenced the rune “X” as one of them).  The tear in the middle seems to have been brought about by the spiral, given that it seems “active,” right in the center, and right there by the jagged opening.  I saw that as a spiritual/emotional thing. 

The spiral can represent the female form of “God” or “Goddess.”  It can represent the unending journey of life, growth and development.  The spiral seems to be a potent symbol for me, I find it in many of my creations, and have seen it in visions and dreams…

I kinda feel this pic is saying these “rends” in life are a good thing, we grow and learn from them.  All I know is what came from my “righteous anger” created good things at my job, the end of a situation where I was allowing someone to treat me in an unacceptable way… something I’d been “swallowing” for a year.  And something that “being nice” simply fueled.  But the outcome of this situation, of me allowing my anger to be, of not fearing it, of honoring it — by not destroying someone with it, but showing them my “power” in it…it showed me that I can face my fear, walk through the fire of it, and still be okay — and even better — on the other side of it.  I love my anger and all my other precious emotions.  I have them for a reason, and I am very grateful for them, for all that I am :)

Both health issues (directly attributed to anger by those in-the-know on the correlation between health issues and dis-ease) and life issues have begun to rectify themselves in my life because I have begun to allow my anger, to honor it, as it should be.  It is not a wicked thing, it is part of this amazing human-spiritual experience. 

I feel compelled to interject that I am not advocating going around being angry all the time.  In fact, quite the opposite.  Ironically, people who are always talking about how bad these “negative” emotions are, are actually holding onto to them in their denying/hating them, in their futile efforts to MAKE themselves be happy, lol  It doesn’t work that way.  We aren’t all “sweetness and light” no matter how much we try to FORCE ourselves to be. The genuine “happy” comes from allowing all of our emotions to be, feeling them, honoring them, appreciating/loving them, and then letting them pass.  You will know you are not fully or properly doing this if you tend to have a lot of aches and pains … and assorted other health issues.  For example, backaches often represent worrying about money.  Yes, we need to replace that fear with “faith” and positive thoughts about our money situation, but first we have to face the fear, allow it to be, honor it, release it and then begin to think/feel that wonderful “faith,” that “knowing” that all will turn out well.

Above all, let it be okay that you are human, love your “human-ness” and all that you are.  That’s a good thing :)

Peace, 
Dove

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Here I sit, with my heart still pounding from, once again, racing to work — mad as hell at myself all the way — for yet again allowing my addiction to adrenaline to be.  I live three frickin’ minutes from work!!  It’s insane that I can’t be early for work.  I know it’s about my anger, I understand it — hell, I’ve written articles about it with some great advice.  So why can’t I fix this in myself?  Why don’t I — why don’t I change?  I dunno, I get tired of the ongoing process of having to give it (my anger) attention, to do all the processing stuff — I DON’T LIKE FEELING ANGRY!  I don’t like thinking about all the things that make me angry.  I don’t like thinking about the crap I endured in the past…as a kid…that infused me with rage.  I don’t like thinking about how so many sorry-assed people got away with harming me.  I don’t like thinking about all the loathesome injustice in this world…  Because that makes me want to hurt them — and that makes me wanna cry.  And I hate to cry…even though I know that’s the healing point.

As I was panting from my wild rush to get here, I grab my regular deck of cards, and angrily ask, “What?….what the hell?…why?”  I pulled several diamond cards, which I’ve come to see as a blending of the coins and wands in the Tarot — fiery/physical.  Jack of Diamonds was the second card I drew.  “Jack” is what my anger calls itself.  He’s the “fire in my belly.”  The cards seem to be saying that if I want to get my life on track, heal all my crap, I’ve got to be GRATEFUL for my anger — I’ve got to love it (Ace of Hearts/Cups) – love it!  I’ve got to get to a point where I LOVE (aka, honor, respect, be grateful for, give attention to) my anger…AND to actually see the opportunity in it (Ace of Diamonds).

Now that’s a challenge, especially with most people telling ya’ how bad our fear and anger are (I do believe fear is the root of all anger).  And I do feel these potent emotions are very unhealthy when we allow ourselves to be consumed by them most of the time.   But that applies to anything really — excesses are not good thing.  Balance, moderation, “the middle road,” is.

But the irony seems to be that if we totally try to ignore them, pretend these feelings don’t exist in us, deny them, hate them…they then become a “monster” in us, the monster in our lives.  They become the block to all our dreams, all the good things we hope for, but never seem to be able to realize.  I believe, without question, it is the denying/hating of this part of ourselves that brings about “evil.”  It simply makes so much sense — how in the world could it be a good thing to HATE any part of our human-ness?  To hate ANY part of us, is to hate the “whole,” to hate ourselves. 

We will never get to that crucial self-love until we can love all of that which we are — including all of the “ugly” and supposedly “bad” stuff.  If you don’t love all of it, then you don’t truly love it.  Unconditional love — that’s the only true love.  The rest is pretentious bullshit — conditional “love.”  Again, unless we accept, understand, have compassion for, embrace EVERYTHING about ourselves, then we don’t truly love ourselves with the kind of depth that is crucial for healing ourselves, our lives.  And you will never convince me that you can truly love another until you can unconditionally love yourself in this way.  We attract the energy that is within us. 

 Ahhh, I feel better having written this…  Hmmm, I guess that’s all ”Jack” wanted, some of that powerfully healing attention … respect/honor … love.

Update:  I thought this might be a good place to share a picture I created while feeling a lot of anger, “Fire in the Belly (what rage looks like)”

Dove

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Well, here’s my latest in a series of my MS Paint pics spurred by a lot of anger needing to be released a few days ago….and then some depression that followed.  And then it seemed I’d turned the spigot on a lot of repressed anger, that it seems I’ll be working on for a while…  Hmm, that anger…is certainly some powerful fuel for creating.  Unbelievably, I spent the whole day on this!  It’s called, “Spiraling Heart.“

Peace,
Dove

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“Spiraling Heart” by Dove, September 2007

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Back on MS Paint this  morning… It’s all gray and rainy here and I was feelin’ kinda depressed, some residual anger from yesterday (see my “Fire in the Belly“/pic) and other things I s’pose are making me feel kinda blue…  I thought I’d try the Paint program again to feel it and clear it out. 

I was feelin’ it, I started out just wanting to draw a bunch of vertical lines to represent the rain, and then several geometric shapes grew from that… I was feeling more depressed and it looked like crap to me — I kept painting over stuff…so I wanted to stop…several times.  But then I just kept going.  And, although it looks a bit morbid, I kinda like it :) and I hope pushing myself through it was healing. 

I often show a woman I work with my creations.  She’s a sweet little “church-lady,” and I like her in spite of that, lol ;)  I was concerned how she might react to this one, she liked my “Rage” from yesterday.  I had this one on my desktop to show her, and she goes, “Oh … well.” (LOL)   But she liked it, she invariably has something positive to say about them.

I always ask my pics what they wish to be called and this one just kept saying, “Patterns.”  That seemed like a boring name, so I wanted to come up with something better…  I asked my Tarot to help me with that and drew the King of Cups.  Hmm, well, that card can be about addictive patterns, an alcoholic or the like…he can also represent a therapist.  Here’s an interpretation I came upon that seems appropriate here…

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The King of Cups represents an individual who has repressed his emotions and dreams to be able to succeed in a world that appreciates material achievements. This individual has conflicting emotions regarding intimate relationships. On one hand there is a desire for closeness and commitment; on the other hand there is a fear of being contained and limited by these emotions. Confrontation is necessary to face fears and accept the growth that comes with emotional challenges.

 Source:  http://www.psymon.com/tarot/cups-king.html

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“Addictive Patterns” seems boring too.  I started to just take the heart hint and call it “Heart Patterns,” which isn’t bad…or maybe “Pernicious Patterns” or “Perpetual Patterns.”  But none of those seem to quite get it, so, I’m stickin’ to the name it originally gave me, plain ole “Patterns.”

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“Patterns” by Dove, September 2007

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