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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Ugh, I don’t feel so good.  I think I’m going through a healing crisis or something, healing is such a wild ride…  I did get some decent sleep last night, almost 7 hours, which is very unusual for me.  I almost never remember my dreams, and I think that’s the main reason why (not sleeping long enough).  I was thinking about that this morning, how so many of us don’t get a healthy amount of sleep.  And sleep is so very important.  Not only for our health, but it’s like meditation — that is, even though we might not consciously remember or note what comes to us, it still comes to us and it helps us in this life, it heals us – that energy that comes during those “down times.”  And so, since we create it all (including all the I-don’t-have-time situations), we are avoiding this healing energy that comes from healthy sleep and meditation.  Why, why do we avoid it?  Because healing brings change, and we invariably resist change, especially the mega-changes that these healthy rituals bring.  We fear change…

I guess I broke through my own resistance a bit last night by getting a dab more sleep.  Just enough to remember a very vivid dream.  Someone asked me a while back if I dreamed in color and I’ve never noticed that I have — until last night.  Again, it was very vivid, but I only remember the color of the animals.   And their fur resembled the color of my hair, (naturally) red or rusty orange :)   I was in what was apparently my home, but it was open, no walls in front.  I was looking outside through these open or missing walls.  There were camels lying around, one very close to the house.  I thought, ah, I’ve gotta get a pic of this for my blog, lol ;)  So I went to get my camera and found a fine-looking fox in my bed, just sittin’ there like he belonged there :)  I wanted him out of my bed, so I picked up a skinny leather belt and swatted him with it.  It pained me to hit him, but I was afraid he would hurt me…  He left my bed, went outside through the open walls, but then turned around and started walking back.  He came close to me, and I raised the skinny belt to defend myself (lol) — again, I wasn’t sure to what extent it might harm me.  He was glaring at me, and I was staring right back and was prepared to strike him again.  I did feel afraid.  He held his stare on me and I heard a very faint, close-mouthed growl.  That’s when I woke up :)

I have a few ideas as to what this dream is about, but I haven’t given it enough thought yet.  It is interesting though that I was reading about the fox totem just yesterday on another’s blog – even made a comment, sharing how the fox represents the Magician (in the Tarot) for me.  So it’s especially interesting that I then dreamed about a fox last night.  Here’s one interpretation for the camel…

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Replenishment, Survival

People with Camel totems have the ability to remain positive
in the harshest of times and experiences.
Their philosophy is always “the glass is half full.”

Camel people often have unusual sleep habits, rarely sleeping through the night.
They often power nap instead.

The appearance of a Camel totem can signify hard times ahead,
but everything will turn out good in the end.
Remain positive and all will work out. Camel people can accomplish the impossible.

Source: http://www.linsdomain.com/totems/pages/camel.htm

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Geez, so much of this seems to be pointing to difficult times, and today’s one of them (but so far, so good) – hopefully, this is fleeting energy, but as I indicated, this transformation stuff is generally a rocky ride.  And it depends on how good we are at “going with the flow” and all…  I feel that all of these messages are at least primarily about my health, which is definitely improving, but also clearing away of stubborn ole patterns (and I think the two go hand-in-hand).

I’ve been seeing “555″ quite a bit lately, and this morning I happened to look at a watch I keep in the bathroom (it shows the seconds too) at just the right SECOND — “5:55:55,” which was a potent 5 message.  In a post I did recently(“Angelic Numerology”), it indicates this about the 5…

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“When you notice 5’s, this means significant transformation is going on within you, to bring you more into alignment, with the real you. You are being transformed into a beautiful butterfly.”

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And 5’s are aligned with the rest of these messages, not usually fun in my experience — such is the nature of “transformation.”  Ya’ just have to stick it out to get to the good stuff :) 

So this morning, I did my usual adrenaline-addict rush to work, angry about how I repeat this pattern every morning.  But usually I shake that off and have a good day, but today, again, I just didn’t feel so good (starting to feel better now).  I cut my cards when I got here, and got the most icky card in the deck.  Cut again, and yet another icky one.  Not a surprise — the cards draw right from our hearts/minds (our energy).  I felt like crap, so it shows me crap.  And when I see (am reminded of) my energy like that via the Tarot, I immediately try to change it.  Not always easy, especially when you’re not feeling well physically. 

I then did a spread online and it showed me as Pitiful Pearl (lol), the 5 of coins, but the Magician card was in the “Situation” position.  Hmmm, am I resisting becoming the Magician that I am (that we all are)?  Do I need to take some type of action for my healing…?  Or am I feeling the energy of another Magician?  (A problematic connection I have with another that strongly represents unhealthy relationship patterns that I desperately wish to heal.  Actually I feel I have recently made significant progress in this area as well.)  Hmmm, I think perhaps it’s all interrelated. 

The “Near Future” position showed the World card, which can be a healing card, generally a very positive card.  The “Outcome” is the Six of Swords, another healing card, but can also represent grieving or sadness — part of the healing process.

I then endeavored to change my energy and was even saying a positive affirmation, “I am love, I am love…,” that I often use to shift my energy.  I drew another spread (online).  It showed me as the Ace of Cups, a potent love card :)  But what fascinated me, and I don’t remember ever doing this before, the first three cards, the core of the spread was all Aces, three Aces.  Interesting.  Shows some powerful potential (the Aces are like potent seeds).   The Near Future and Outcome cards on this one look very good — I just need to hang in there :)

But the three Aces excite me, getting Aces like that invariably means something new and very cool is on the horizon :)  And that was an awesome dream, even if the Fox did scare me.  Did I mention that the Fox is one of my totems?  Among other things, this dream may be saying that I’m still a bit frightened of my own “magic,” but my magic (represented by the Fox) knows it belongs in “my bed” ;) 

Hmmm, just noticed the time is 4:11 (I started this post this morning, and finishing it up this afternoon) — that, 411, was the number sequence that came up so much on my “Magic Monday.”  

My energy seems to have really improved since this morning, because I just drew a beautiful 3-card spread (yep, online again, heh), way good stuff on that one too.  It’s so cool to truly know that my world is all about MY energy.  I have the pow-uh ;)

Exciting times…

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I was just reading an old post I did on a book that I feel everyone should read — that is, those who are so very tired of being on a hamster wheel that never gets them to where they wish to be, wondering where’s the happiness, the freedom…   It’s called “The Paradigm Conspiracy.”  My previous post includes an overview of the book (note, the bolded areas were my doing). 

As I was reading over this overview, thoughts came up about a blog I was frequenting on here a while back — trying to tweak the minds of a group of rabid skeptics.  I was sharing a few of my experiences with them, particularly with the Tarot.  Of course, it mattered not that they had zero experience in this regard (and I’ve now spent about a decade almost incessantly using the Tarot), they still scoffed at the prospect that what I spoke was the truth.  Since they’d already warmed up to me a bit, they first tried to be charitable and suggested that I was imagining all of this (heh), but it was clear that if that wasn’t it, dishonesty had to be.  

I tried to not let it annoy me — I s’pose I asked for it by sharing such things with people who believe nothing that their science tells them they shouldn’t believe.  I remember posting my Edison post (where people mocked Edison — scientists, and other lofty ones) on that thread, and there was a brief pause … then one of them came back with something like, “Yeah, but those Edison things could be proved by science.”  At that point, I moved on, because it was clear their minds weren’t budging — but I was like, huh?  Then, why were highly regarded scientists among those who scoffed at and mocked Edison? …

My next thoughts were about a guy in my past.  My cards have actually referenced him as a “fool” (several times) in the negative sense (but there is also a positive take on the fool in the Tarot).  The way he thinks boggles my mind, but I don’t think he’s that much different than many — thinking that “success” is all about how much money you can make.  And so this guy is consumed by his work.  He sees no other way to become his version of a success.  I remember a few years ago when he started working this job, I told him that it was a prison, that it wasn’t worthy of losing his health over.  I heard from him recently — he said he’d been in the hospital a couple of times recently per lack of sleep…   What he doesn’t seem to get is that the present dictates the future.  If it isn’t balanced, the future won’t be.  If you’re not happy in the present, you won’t be in the future either.  The thing is, you can do something in the present that might not be all that you wish for, BUT you must BALANCE it with what you do want.  That is, some energy MUST be put towards what you do want.  If you are currently neglecting and abusing your body for some pay-off in the future, there’s no balance in that — so stay tuned for a messed up body in the future.  But hey, you’ll have lotsa money to go to the hospital and docs a lot…

It’s insanity.  Our bodies, our health, are PRICELESS.  Ya’ can’t go out and buy a new body — NO MATTER HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE.  Ask someone who has no sight, but lotsa money what they’d pay for the gift of sight.  Someone with no legs what they’d pay to have them back?  …  And yet so many of us sacrifice our lives, our health, so as to make money — to buy STUFF.  Geez. 

Actually it isn’t insanity, or even stupidity (usually), it’s what the above-mentioned book speaks of.  A kind of brainwashing via “paradigms.”  And I would add that we keep doing this over and over, because the promise of what it supposedly brings (happiness, or even real security, per money/power), never actually happens — but we think (per the paradigms) that it will if we just work a little more, a little harder…  And then maybe ya’ get “there,” but all you discover is that you’ve been a fool…you’ve been duped into sacrificing your precious body, life, health, TRUE HAPPINESS…for a pile of green paper, a false sense of security/safety, a mountain of material stuff that’s momentarily gratifying but ultimately suffocating, and an illusion of power…  All you truly have in those things is NOTHING, but you’ve lost so much in this FINITE life…

It’s time to “wake up.”  And this book is a good place to start :)  Read the overview of the “The Paradigm Conspiracy” here.  And then also realize that you ARE the power, it’s all about what you believe… And it will be those who are endeavoring to overcome the brainwashing that will truly be powerful in the future, not those who continue to put their total focus and efforts in the outer world, all the while destroying their bodies, and consequently dishonoring the real power — within them.

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Watching ole Charlton Heston (damn, he’s good) play Moses in that movie, “The Ten Commandments.”   A movie I’ve seen so many times since I was a kid.  I’ve always liked it, only now it’s a blessing that I no longer feel even a hint of fear in watching it, unlike when I was a bible-pounding kid.  I see it so differently now…

That line jumped out at me that the Pharaoh spoke.  He was angry that “the slave’s god” was clearly kicking their god’s ass, lol ;)  And to his priests or whatever, he angrily said something like, “You created the gods — to play upon the fear of the people.”  Indeed, all “gods” are fabricated for this reason.  That’s probably the best and most telling line of the movie.

Sitting here watching this, good-gawd, no wonder most people are so horrified of “God.”  Another line that got me, Moses telling his former love that he couldn’t save her child (firstborn of the Pharaoh) because he was “nothing without God.”  Again, no wonder with such things spoken in this type of movie — watching it over and over, year after year (more people watching it than reading the bible) — no wonder we are so self-loathing.  No wonder our world looks the way it does, no wonder we endeavor to destroy it, ourselves.  We believe we are nothing.  So sad. 

It’s all so misconstrued, twisted around into BS — “to play upon the fear of the people.”  No, Moses is nothing without “God,” because Moses IS “God.”  We all are, this is what Moses meant.  This body is a shell, nothing — it is the “spirit” within that is real, is “God.”  And it is us who have personified this thing called ”God” into a fiery-eyed one, separate from us — who supposedly loves us one minute, but is highly wrathed up about us the next. 

The scene that really gets me in the gut is where they are eating the herbs and bread.  Sitting there hearing (trying to ignore) the unnerving cries from a distance of the mothers and fathers watching their children die.  One man in the house with Moses’ is singing!  Yee-haw, rejoice — God’s green stuff is killing children!  Good-gawd.  And then the woman (mother of the Pharaoh, former mother of Moses) is pained by the cries and says, “They’re my people.”  Another of Moses’ people leans over to her and says sweetly, “We’re all God’s people.”  Uh.  It’s okay, hon, God knows what he’s doing in killing those children.  Geez.

When ya’ know it’s all symbolic, this movie is so much easier to watch — yet, at the same time, unnerving in the realization that so many of us believe this represents literal truth.  Moses says that he cannot save the Pharaoh’s firstborn, that the Pharaoh brought it upon himself with HIS OWN WORDS.  Not God’s words, but the Pharaoh’s own words.  Meaning, we create our own reality.  The Pharaoh wished this upon others, and since we are all God, he wished it upon himself… (”karma”)

All the children supposedly being killed by the green death-smoke — it wasn’t about death, it was about transformation.  Again, symbolic.  Interestingly, green is the color of the heart chakra, it’s about healing, it’s about love.  We “die” to (become free of) our old selves when we heal our hearts, and we become something new (transformation, aka, “death”). 

And the absurdity of this Pharaoh not letting the people go after Moses shows him some heady stuff from our “God” :)  I mean, geez, he changed the water to frickin’ blood, even the container of water that the Pharaoh held.  No water for seven days, then the three days of darkness, and that cool fiery hail ;)  How stupid could the Pharaoh be to not give Moses whatever the hell he wanted, lol   Not reality — it is all symbolic messages.   The Pharaoh represents our fear, and how our fear has an irrational death-grip on us (”let my people go.”)  And we allow our fear to have this hold on us — represented by Moses leaving each time.

It’s ALL about us, collectively, and individually.  We are very much NOT “nothing,” we are God :)  We are both Moses and the Pharaoh — it is fear, and only fear, that enslaves us.  We need only to “worship” (love) and believe in the “God” that is within us, that is us.  We need only to face the ”Pharaoh” (fear) within us and set ourselves free from it.  Only then will we truly “know God” (love and trust our own hearts) and get to “heaven” (peace, and creating the blissful lives we desire). 

*Yawn*  It’s time to wake up, to snap out of the brainwashing, the fear, that has kept us as slaves.  ”Fear not.”  “There is NOTHING to fear, but fear itself.”  (Pharaoh = Fear, Moses = Love, Freedom)

“Let my people go.”

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I’ve been itchin’ to write about this since Monday, but…I dunno, sometimes I wonder if I should be sharin’ so much of my “stuff,” but I’ve gotta trust that “itch” :)   Most of it I keep to myself, but some of these magical moments are just too amazing not to share…  So here we go.

Monday (the 17th) was, um, a very interesting “errand day,” and I’m recalling that my last errand day started out with some interesting energy as well.  Right off, in driving toward town, I noticed the license plate in front of me was either 11 or it totalled to 11.  Okay, no biggee, I often notice such things.  I got to the post office, it had been two weeks since I’d been there.  I was amazed that I didn’t have much mail, but in my box there were two bigger-box keys for two packages I needed to get.  I looked at the number on one of them, it was 11 :)  Hmmm, synchronous with the 11 license plate, was my thought.  The other box key number was 4. 

I then wondered which box I should open first, which package might be heavier, thinking the lighter one would be easier to hold while getting the heavier one…  As I wondered which would be best to open first, I heard “4″ and thought, alrighty then ;)  I opened 4 (I can’t remember if it was the lighter one, but I think so) and then got the other package from Box 11.  Okay, now hang on, this is actually building to something :) 

My next stop was a town about 20 miles from here.  I got on the highway and was amazed when I saw the license plate in front of me, it was a long number, but the last three digits were, “411.”  Within seconds, I looked up and a car with one of those temporary tags was in front of me and it was here that I realized we had some mucho magic goin’ on, heh  I saw in the first “box” of this temporary tag, “4″ and the next box was “11″ — the date was 4-11-08.  Alrighty then…a huge emphasis on 411, and all within about 10 or 15 minutes? — and so intriguing that that “little voice” instructed me to go to the 4 first, then 11.  Then I remembered the day before that I had gotten “something” that was pointing me to the end of the first week of April, not far from that date.  So now I’m feeling something “interesting” is going to be happening on that day…

I started seeing an explosion of 11’s and multiples of 11 (22, 33) — and that continued for most of the day.  (Ya’ know, anywhere there were numbers.)  I started thinking about the number 11 — and “double magic” popped into my head, referencing the two ones in the 11.  One is the number of the Magician in the Tarot, hence “double magic.”  I liked that :)  Perhaps it referenced heightened “magic” beginning to happen in my life.  It’s pretty magical already :)

But the rest of my Monday wasn’t as “peachy” as it usually is.  Shortly after all the “411″ messages, I noticed a marquee (driving through a little town toward the other) that said something about “stand up” or “standing up,” and when I arrived at my destination, I had to follow that advice.  A retailer was going back on a price (reneging) that she had quoted me over the phone, and after that quote she ordered me a case of the stuff (and I had even told her that the price was the only reason I ordered and was willing to drive the 20 miles for it – strangely, she thought since “the price changed in the computer” in the interim, the rest didn’t matter).  I definitely “stood up” to that challenge and was victorious … but I didn’t like having to start my day with that kind of unpleasantness.  And then I was thinking that wasn’t very dang magical, lol ;)

The 11 thing continued throughout the day, but nothing much else to “write home about,” but there was one more little point of magic that gave me a bit of a thrill.  My last stop of the day, a late evening trip to the grocery store (the local healthfood store).  I had to return from my visit earlier that day because of an error on my ticket (hmm, yeah, the day did seem to have a few little snags like that, and that isn’t the norm). 

I told a girl at the service desk about the error, she agreed with my remedy, and said to just tell the cashier.  I thanked her…she was a new girl, so I asked what her name was.  “Raven,” she said :)  I couldn’t help but smile and say, “Ah, I love that name.”  The crow and the raven animal totems are pretty much the same type of energy, and I consider them both under my “crow” totem — they are both very much about magic :)  I thought that was a highly cool punctuation for this “Magic Monday.”

I later asked my Tarot what the “411″ message was about and drew the Magician :)  I asked for clarity and drew the Fool card.  Hmmm, pretty powerful stuff.  The Fool’s magic comes from his/her childlike faith/trust and generally care-free, childlike and playful attitude toward life.  When we become like the “fool,” and begin to trust in our own magic, we too become “magical” :)

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  It’s inconceivable to me what we’re doing to our precious world…  I don’t recommend continual focus on the negative, but we do need to be aware of the “monsters” we’re creating…the monstrous things we’re doing to Nature.  There has to be a balance between focusing on (manifesting) that which we wish to create (healing of our precious planet, peace…) and taking action intuitively toward making these changes. 

I hesitated making this post, but I kept thinking about this …

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“It was the news that the sexuality of starlings is being increasingly affected by contamination from female hormones like oestrogen from the contraceptive pill and hormone replacement therapy (HRT). These hormones are contained in female urine which passes through the sewage treatment process unchanged and the birds foraging for worms at the sewage works consume the chemicals. One effect of this is to increase the size of that part of the brain which controls their singing, and their song patterns are now very different to what would be expected from male starlings.”

Read more here:  http://salonesoterica.wordpress.com/2008/03/10/prepare-to-download-your-sexuality/

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Even though there are other sad things like this indicated in this article — how we’re screwing up the animals, I was sitting here thinking about a world where birds could no longer sing…  And in walks a co-worker from outside, and he expresses his joy about the nice weather, “The sun is shining, the birds are singing…”  It was difficult not to respond with, “Yeah, for now.”  His synchronous comment spurred me to go ahead and post this. I so want to believe that we will stop all of this insanity — that we will change before it’s too late, long before the birds stop singing…

Peace,
Dove
 

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Well, it started on Saturday… this Jesus thing, he’s been around me for some reason.  Oh, but he thinks it’s funny that I call him “Jay-sus” lol ;)  Jesus would really be a drag if he had no sense of humor, ya’ know? 

Anyway, I thought nothing more about it after Saturday, but there he was again this morning…  He went shopping with me, heh :)   Today was my errand day.  And it was an exceedingly icky day weatherwise — icy cold, and highly wet, rain or really cold mist all day long.  I shivered as I closed my umbrella and walked into the post office and around the corner to the area where my p.o. box is located. 

Very unusual, a little lady with coal-colored hair appeared outta nowhere, and was opening a box not far from mine.  I said something about the icky weather and she said something sweetly about being grateful :)  “Yeah, you’re right…” I responded.  Then, also out of the blue, she said to me, ”Remember Jesus is always with you, no matter where you go.” :)  That really stoked me, since having had the Jesus energy around me just a coupla days before.  I just smiled at her, thinking “You are Jesus, sweetie.” 

My next stop, minutes later, was the grocery store…  As I looked for a park, I noticed where someone had written on the front of a car, “I (heart symbol) you.”  That was so close to the mention of Jesus, I couldn’t help but think that was him talking to me again ;)  { Update: Hey, I was just re-reading this, and realized that I hadn’t tied this “I (heart) you” with my other Jesus post where I noted that I had sang “Jesus loves me…” as a little one…ah, that just makes me smile all over again :) }  Throughout the day I was seeing and hearing things that aligned with this energy…  even hearing “Jesus” a couple of times on the radio as it scanned.  At one point, I felt I was chatting with him in my mind, mostly joking with each other :) 

Then I started seeing the number 16 everywhere, that usually represents, for me, the Tower card in the Tarot (number 16).  Interestingly, I had a day last year around this time when I began seeing the 16 like that, but that one last year was unnerving, I felt the Tower inside me, I shook inside (like the Tower), it frightened me … and sure enough, it proved to be a warning of something not-so-good about to happen…  But I lived through it, and came out of it for the better.

But this one today was different, I felt no fear, and I saw positive things around the 16.  So I felt this, unlike the other, was a positive message.  The Tower card can represent “enlightenment,” and freedom…even just a surprise.  At one point I was in a store, browsing, and I began seeing it again on items in the store.   I felt I was about to get a “surprise,” and felt I might be seeing someone that I knew…  And sure enough, just before I walked out of the store, in walked a co-worker I never would have imagined seeing there — it really did shock me (surprise)  :) 

At the end of the day, in the parking lot of my last stop for “errand day,” I was backing out and saw flashing lights at a distance, an emergency vehicle.  As I got on the main road for home, more emergency vehicles (I don’t think they were related to the other), about four of them, I had to pull over a couple of times…  These also reflect “Tower” energy…but again, I noted that I felt no fear inside from them…  I glanced at a license plate in front of me that simply said, “Sun” and that made me smile… that’s the “God/dess” card in the Tarot, a card about much joy.  My favorite card…

I’d gotten a lot of messages through the day like “No problem,” and “Don’t worry.”  So that was comforting.  Also many things that represent intuition, and “magic” and, of course, Jesus is part of that :) 

Still not entirely sure why Jesus has been hanging out with me lately, but I did get a strong message about “Heaven” at one point today.  I’d been getting that the Six of Cups card is related to it.  That is a sweet card that can represent home and joy and peace…  “Jesus” told me that this is “heaven” — it’s all the same thing – peace, “home,” joy — “Heaven.”  Ahh, so that’s what it meant when I heard years ago, at a climactic point in my life, that I was “getting closer to home.”  Home, peace, joy — “heaven” :)  I hope Jesus’ visit means I’m just almost there — I think so :)   I’m feeling very “blessed” lately…

Thanks Jay-sus, I heart you too *muah* ;)

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  A cool synchronicity this morning…  I did a search on Google for a passage I had remembered reading the other day.  I searched with this, “Deepak selfish demanding wife” :)   And sure enough, I got to a page that had the passage I was seeking.  I wanted to post it in a comment to this blog (see second comment) about embracing our anger.   Just as I arrived at this “Deepak” page, a co-worker walked up and began chatting with me.  As he walked out the door afterward, I looked up and saw (glass walls here) a van sitting in the parking lot that said, “JE Systems” on the side of it.  Hey, I thought, that says, “Jesus.” (Je-sys)  Too cool, because the caption of the web page I was on was, ‘Who is Deepak Chopra’s “Third Jesus”?’  :)

So we have an emphasis on the Jesus energy this morning.  I’ve been getting a lot of synchronous “hits” around me ever since noticing this “JE Sys” thing, and while typing this.  I stopped at one point, and came back to it and had some interesting things “appear” each time.  During the first one (typing this), a girl walked in front of me with an eagle on her t-shirt (eagle totem, “Great Spirit”).  Then just now I was searching for a blog where I’d written about the number 33 (sometimes called Jesus’ number) and right before (I mean, immediately before) finding it, a guy walked in front of me with the number 11 on his t-shirt.  The name of the blog is “Master Number 11” :)  (See the 6th or 7th comment for the elaboration on the 33)  So I’m guessing all these syncs are the Universe’s way of saying they be likin’ what I’m chattin’ about here ;)

Although I feel the “Jesus” energy is a part of my path, I don’t really have the inclination to talk/write about it so much…I s’pose that’s because it’s tied to organized religion, which I have ”issues” with…  There’s no doubt that the number 33 is a part of my energy, it has been prolific in my life.  (Wow, an albino couple just walked through the door — an oddity or rarity, which would again be the Universe speaking…but in this moment, I have no idea what that means, lol)  But they came in right here at this point, and I’m speaking of the 33 being part of my energy — may simply be a punctuation of that fact :)  I was about to say my current apartment number is also 33 …  

Another Jesus memory that has stayed with me is when a novice intuitive, like me at the time, did a reading on me and he said he saw my heart, and that it was golden like Jesus’ :)  It really rocked my world when he said that, my spiritual path did begin in the church when I was a little one, so it very much moved me… That reading was about a decade ago.  Oh, and I gotta mention that I was told that during potty training, I would sit there singing “Jesus loves me” lol ;)

Anyway, so I was on this web page with an excerpt from Deepak Chopra’s “The Third Jesus.”  After noting the “Je sys” synchronicity, I felt there might be something on this page for me, it is interesting reading, but this part below is what I zeroed in on…

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The first Jesus is less than consistent, as a closer reading of the gospels will show. If Jesus was perfectly peaceful, why did he declare, “Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword”? (Matthew 10:34) If he was perfectly loving, why did he say, “Throw out the unprofitable servant into the outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth”? (Matthew 25:30) (Sometimes the translation is even harsher, and Jesus commands “the worthless slave” to be consigned to hell.) If Jesus was humble, why did he claim to rule the earth beyond the power of any king? At the very least, the living Jesus was a man of baffling contradictions.

And yet the more contradictions we unearth, the less mythical this Jesus becomes. The flesh-and-blood man who is lost to history must have been extraordinarily human. To be divine, one must be rich in every human quality first. As one famous Indian spiritual teacher once said, “The measure of enlightenment is how comfortable you feel with your own contradictions.”

http://community.gaiam.com/gaiam/p/Who-Is-Deepak-Chopras-Third-Jesus.html

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That last line I felt was aligned with what I was trying to convey in my blog I mentioned above about anger.  That quote from Jesus mentioning both peace and a sword brings to mind another energy that is very much a part of me, Goddess Athena :)  Yeah peace is the deal, but there are times, at least in this experience, that we must fight (Athena is about both war and peace).  We create it all, and so we must deal with our creations, our “monsters,” until we learn how to manifest better things…  and “Armageddon” is a battle within us — of course, because we are the world, and so the physical world will “rock” when we do :)

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I’m very much appreciating a new blog I’ve recently come upon about indigos and our spiritual path and all — very informative and helpful.  A recent post on there speaks of not allowing others to offend us, and I agree with much of what it’s saying.  Even so, I feel some tend to take such advice and simply push down their anger in an effort to follow it.  That’s a very harmful practice.  We should never push down or deny our anger in an effort to be “saintly” or to “not be offended.” 

No matter what anyone says, anger is NOT an “evil” thing.  It is a human thing, and if it weren’t of benefit to us (at times) then it would not be such a significant part of this human experience.  And given that it is a part of us, we should not dishonor it, dishonor ourselves, by denying HOW WE TRULY FEEL.  That doesn’t mean we should attack others with it, or even necessarily let them know that they have angered us.  Our lives are, we are, ever-changing – and consequently, no strict rules should be applied.  Our freedom and peace and a joyful life depend upon our trusting our own hearts in EACH MOMENT as to what is right for us. 

Obviously there are situations where it isn’t advisable to show our anger, but we should still acknowledge it to ourselves, and express it later in a healthy way.  One of my first posts on here was about this, how a Buddhist friend was enduring colon cancer…and I feel certain this is a result of denying one’s anger for a lot of years, “not being offended” one time too many. 

I think the primary thing to remember though is that if there are others around us who are saying abusive things to us, then we should realize there is something about our own energy that is creating this.  And unless that changes within us, this person (and others) will continue to abuse us in this way.   And if we are living with (or married to) such a person, then that’s an indicator that this energy is potent within us — that is, we are not loving ourselves so much.  And healing this energy WITHIN US is of the highest priority to stop the abuse… 

We can consciously “love” ourselves, and at the same time still have unhealed energy in our subconscious that continues to draw this abusive energy to us.  But until we heal it, allowing the abuse (verbal or whatever) to continue — and pushing down our anger — is not a good thing.  Ignoring such things will not make them go away, and more often than not, doing so simply allows the problem to grow worse. 

Additionally, we are human beings, so no matter how “enlightened” we become, our energy will fluctuate (change is our nature) with higher points of self-love and lower ones.  At the those “lower” times, we will draw a bit of that abusive, “lower” energy (like attracts like). 

If we realize this, then when others are less than loving toward us in those moments, we can be aware of it being a passing thing (because it is simply a reflection of a ”momentary” thing within us — not something deep within that needs seriously healing), then it is much easier to “not be offended” and just let it go.  Even so, even with these little “barbs,” (not on-going abuse) it is still not wise to dishonor our anger.  Anger, like all emotion, will build within if not acknowledged and processed routinely.  Go ahead and allow yourself to be “offended” (angry), but “smile” at the unhealed one…then later go work it out in the gym or write about it at home or do some other anger-releasing ritual (dancing is good too).  Think about that moment of anger, then do the dance of your choice :)  Process it to whatever degree you intuit is needed.  Then you’ll be able to truly let it go, and hug the person the next day :)

Peace,
Dove

Update:  I want to put an excerpt here from the blog I mentioned above (one of my first posts on WordPress), from the emclear article…

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It’s still 1988. I’m searching. I come into contact with a teacher who seems to be presenting Eastern philosophy in a new way. I already know much about Eastern philosophy, so much that I hadn’t read any for years, but all of what I had read was the old school, if I may use that term. The old school never really recognized negative feelings - just be spiritual, it said. If you felt angry, be loving. In other words, suppress your anger. This new teacher had things to say that I had never heard. Maybe I was just never ready to hear before now, but the revolution was beginning within me.

I started having tremendous insights. I realized that a large part of how I saw the world and how I experienced my interactions with others was based on projection. In projection, I would think that someone or something else was responsible for my reaction to them. In other words, I believed that someone or something else was making me angry, lonely, afraid, hateful and so on. What I realized was that these feelings were actually coming from my suppressed emotional subconscious and just attaching to people and circumstances outside myself. Taking it a step further, I could see how I attracted difficult people and circumstances to myself that corresponded to the feelings. Why would I do this, I asked? The answer came that it was in order to bring up the suppressed feelings for clearing.

Source: www.emclear.com

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Someone asked me yesterday if I could teach her how to connect with her heart.  My first thought was I don’t think I can teach something I haven’t learned so well myself.  It’s a journey — and mine began about a decade ago.  My own intuitive guides strongly advised me to meditate (every day), but most of us resist doing this, and so have I.  It’s only been in the last few years that I’ve begun to meditate with any regularity.  But it is, without question, crucial to connecting with one’s heart, and to discovering one’s own power…  The resistance is what makes it a “journey” :) …  an invariably rough one.  Our “de-programming” isn’t going to happen overnight, and there’s no book, class or guru that will make it happen jiffy quick, heh ;) 

Many “Tower” events will invariably be part of this journey — that’s where we resist, but our higher self wants freedom, and this part of us will send a “lightning bolt” to come crashing into our comfort zone(s).  That is, whatever is holding us back will begin to crumble…  

Our excessive materialism is holding us back.  For those who are still fully invested in the illusion, of this materialistic BS, still hungering to have a zillion-inch screen TV and all the latest hi-tech toys, giving every minute of one’s life to make more money so as to consume more and more, stay-tuned for that bolt :)   It isn’t about some scary “god” forcing this upon us, it is the core of us wanting freedom from the chains of this illusion — that we’ve created, and are greatly suffering because of.  Once the initial pain of that lightning bolt, and the destruction therein of that which imprisons us (the “Tower”), we then begin to feel so much better, so much lighter…  But again, this will not happen overnight.   It’s a journey, and there are no short-cuts.  If it’s easy, you aren’t doing it :)  Remember Frodo in “Lord of the Rings”?  Ya’ gotta destroy “the ring.”  Truly connecting with one’s heart, it is like Frodo’s journey.

Simplicity…this is how we begin to connect with our hearts.  Clearing away all the glop, inside and out – material, mental, emotional…all the things we have piled upon our hearts.  Things we’ve put ahead of that which we truly desire, things (and people) that we’ve put above taking mega-good care of ourselves, things that are suffocating those things we truly love, that which stifles our creativity, our passions…  All of those things are a prison, and deep down we wish to be free.  So we either consciously remove these things, or…the energy that is “deep down” within us will do it in a more dramatic way (the “Tower”).  Note, to get a taste of the Tower, you can do a google search for “Tower Tarot.”  This Tarot card represents freedom and “enlightenment,” but a Tower experience is a challenging way to become free of that which imprisons us — a change that seems to be forced upon us.  We resist this MAJOR change in our lives, because we are blinded to that which enslaves us.

Self-care is how we begin to connect with our hearts.  Self-love, self-respect, self-understanding…  When we heal our hearts, we will then move into them :)  It all begins with routinely looking within. 

My advice is to begin meditating daily, even for just 5 minutes.  That will begin the process.  Self-care — exercise, meditate, do yoga, eat well, rest, sleep, play, set goals, “pray” (ask your higher self for answers), affirm, establish boundaries…take care of you FIRST…  When we truly fall in love with ourselves, truly — then all the rest will fall into place.  That might sound too simple, and would be, except we resist…  So buckle up for a wild, but quite magical ride :)  Moving into one’s heart is moving into their power, real power.

As I was pondering this person’s question about connecting to her heart, I came upon this great post on 2012 called, “The World Will Not End in 2012,” and I honed in on these paragraphs from it…

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“The greatest wisdom is in simplicity,” Mr. Barrios
advised before leaving Santa Fe. “Love, respect,
tolerance, sharing, gratitude, forgiveness. It’s not
complex or elaborate. The real knowledge is free. It’s
encoded in your DNA. All you need is within you. Great
teachers have said that from the beginning. Find your
heart, and you will find your way.”

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“Anthropologists visit the temple sites,” Mr. Barrios
says, “and read the inscriptions and make up stories
about the Maya, but they do not read the signs
correctly. It’s just their imagination… Other people
write about prophecy in the name of the Maya. They say
that the world will end in December 2012. The Mayan
elders are angry with this. The world will not end. It
will be transformed. The indigenous have the
calendars, and know how to accurately interpret it,
not others.”

Source: http://indigolifecenter.wordpress.com/2008/02/28/the-world-will-not-end-in-2012/

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Again, simplicity, as we begin to heal we will begin to hunger for it — simplicity.  And we are the world :)  We are changing, “transforming.”  And holding tightly onto the old will just cause us more suffering.  We don’t really want it anymore, but we don’t consciously realize this…yet.  

I want to interject here that we should allow NOTHING to put fear in our hearts.  Let nothing I say here, or anything in the above article, put fear in your heart.  The “light” and the “dark” that this article speaks of is within us, it’s ALL within us — let no one tell you that there is some power or force outside of you.  You are the power — in your world.  Always remember, “Believe and it shall be so” and always trust your own heart, your own intuition, your own truth.  Anything else is giving your power away, giving it to someone or something outside of yourself.  And that’s how we became imprisoned in the first place. 

Additionally, to heal one’s heart (absolute requirement to connecting or moving into it) we need to stop blaming others for things that we’ve manifested in our own lives (we create it all).  When we begin to point the finger, we should immediately visualize a mirror in front of us :)  It’s all us, everythng and everyone around us, is us.  We can learn so much from simply realizing this, and taking actions to CHANGE US, and give up the need to change and blame others.  Since we are all of it, when we change us, the rest naturally changes :)

Peace,
Dove

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I started this MS Paint pic a few days ago.  The eye, I first thought was going to be a woman’s eye, but then became an elephant’s eye.  I heard “elephant” as I was painting it.  I primarily did the left half of the pic, and then put it aside.  Then later saw the mention of elephant in another blog a couple of times and that spurred me to go back and finish this pic. 

I’ve only been to a zoo once, I never want to go again.  So sad.  We cage these amazing animals, elephants and their giant hearts, so we can go for an hour or whatever and gawk at them.  We essentially take their lives, their freedom, solely for this momentary high, to gawk at a chained elephant…and we somehow don’t see the insanity in that, the imbalance of it.  These very human-like, very powerful creatures chained up…hmmm, perhaps we should look for the mirror in their eyes.

Peace,
Dove

(See source link below for totem interpretation.)

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“Wild Elephants and Hollow Cake” by Dove, February 2008

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Elephant Totem

Throughout history elephants have been prized for their power and strength.  They are extremely intelligence and honored by many cultures.  Elephants are the largest land animals and among the longest lived, with life spans of 60 years or more. According to Buddhist tradition, the Buddha chose the form of a white elephant as one of his many incarnations and the rare appearance of a white elephant is still heralded as a manifestation of the gods.  The Hindu god Ganesh, the remover of obstacles, is depicted with the head of an elephant.

Despite their great weight elephants walk almost noiselessly. Their stride is exceptionally graceful and rhythmic. Their hearing, smell, taste and touch is acute.  This compensates for their poor eyesight.  Their eyes are small in relation to the enormous head, which can only turn slightly from side to side.  This limited movement results in restricted side vision. Those with this medicine feel things deeply and respond to those feelings from a place of inner knowing.  Because their peripheral vision is limited they have a tendency to look straight ahead and not always see what is around them.  Learning to shift ones focus to encompass the whole is helpful.

Loyal and affectionate elephants are willing to risk their life for the sake of others in a family group.  Wild elephants have been known to grieve and even shed tears over the death of a family member.  They have excellent memories and when mistreated they often seek revenge.

Elephants have a total of four teeth, all molars.  The first pair of molars is located toward the front of the mouth.  When they wear down, they drop out and the two molars in the back shift forward.  Two new molars emerge in the back of the mouth to replace those that have moved forward. Elephants replace back molars six times throughout their life.  When the last set wear out, they are unable to chew and die of starvation.

Teeth have great symbolism. They are considered receivers and transmitters of energy linked by connecting paths throughout the astral body.  Because the elephant is highly intelligent those with this totem make excellent researchers and alternative scientists. The complex study of numbers, energy meridians and the tie in between the physical brain, the teeth locations, and the major and minor head chakras is fascinating as well as beneficial.

Elephant tusks point backwards and are used as weapons and for digging edible roots.  From a spiritual point of view this suggests an ability to uncover the secrets left behind you and bring them to the consciousness for evaluation and healing.

This beautiful creature hold the teachings of compassion, loyalty, strength, intelligence, discernment and power to name a few.  If this is your medicine these virtues are a part of your natural character.  By applying these gifts in your life soul evolution is achieved.

Source: http://www.sayahda.com/cyc2.html

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