Peace … Creativity and the Choker
May 1, 2008
By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com That seems to be the theme of the day, Peace :)
Things are going well at work and, although there is a bit of a “Tower” thing in my personal life (my computer recently died of old age, and this is at least part of what the vultures and 411 spoke of), things are still going pretty well otherwise. This all reminds me of my “Peace Eagle” blog…so many messages all tying together. The “Tower” energy destroys the old, and then the “the peace eagle” (vulture) represents clearing it all away for a fresh new beginning.
Relative to the peace theme, I recently wrote the following in a comment on my blog, “Talking Trees.”
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So now I find myself at a point of peace, beginning to have many blessings bestowed upon me. But this isn’t what my heart knows, so oddly enough, I am SUBCONSCIOUSLY uncomfortable with this — the UNFAMILIAR. So I reach back, subconsiously, to what I know — a racing, fearful heart, an adrenaline rush.
I create some “excuse” every morning for having to race to work — it embarasses me. Co-workers seeing me do this, every morning. It makes me angry with myself, every morning. I endeavor to change it, every morning. And yet, somehow, “it’s always something” that creates it yet again.
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Um, I’m still doing that unfortunately, but I’m not giving up on finding the “cure.” :) The thing is, I know the cure, the problem is breaking through the blocks, the subconscious fear, I have about that unfamiliar thing.
I caught myself, (er, actually the Tarot caught me, heh) this morning reaching back to those old patterns — a big bunch of negative thinking. Letting it override my awareness of the perils in doing such a thing. So I asked the Tarot about the issue my mind was trying to stir up. Sometimes the Tarot will totally ignore the question and simply show us what’s really important. The card I first drew was the 4 of Swords — my mind said, “Peace.” It’s a card about resting, withdawing after troubles to find healing and peace. I drew a “clarity” card, the Hermit card. It’s about withdrawing, getting quiet… I drew yet another card, Two of Swords. With that one, very much a “peace” card — especially beside those others, it was apparent that the Universe was advising me to clear out all that negative thinking, and find peace. So grateful for my Tarot…
If that wasn’t a strong enough message, while getting ready for work and putting my make-up on, a memory of an item I loved as a kid popped into my mind. A choker that I wore in junior high (the 70’s). It was a simple suede band, gorgeous deep burgundy color, a cool teardrop-shaped gold peace sign dangled from the center. I loved it, and as I was wondering why the memory of it came to mind — something I hadn’t thought about in lotsa years, I realized it was yet another message of “Peace.” :) The Universe really has a lovely way of driving a point home, lol ;)
Then I started thinking about how it was a “choker.” Hmmm. Seems kinda contradictory to peace. Something that chokes — and it “chokes” my throat, 5th chakra — expression. This seems to be an area in which I’ve long had a problem. Holding back, choking it back, “swallowing” it all… No outlet for so many years for a lot of creativity. Having done pretty much nothing in the area of creativity for most of my life, I now wanna do it all … writing, painting, sculpting, web design, photography, filmmaking …
Years ago, the only time I’ve ever tried this thing called “scrying” — a type of divination — I saw some wild, but very interesting, visions. Ya’ look into a mirror until ya’ “see” something. Among the things I saw was an arm that reached out to choke me. It brought tears when I realized it was my arm. Oh shit, I’m here at work, in public, and the memory of that is bringing tears. Okay-okay, doing the eye-fanning thing now, lol ;)
But I’ve made a lot of progress since then, lotsa learning, lotsa growing, and finally starting to express all that held-back stuff, and doing that all-important creating — in those fleeting moments when I can wrestle my resistance to the ground, heh It’s really just beginning though — I still feel like there’s a volcano of creativity inside me, so much to express, release, create :) I know that creating thing is so very important for our health and PEACE of mind. We are meant to create — we are “creators.” (Little “gods” if you will.) It is essential for our healing, and consequently for the healing of the world, crucial so as to find true peace, “Heaven on Earth” :)
Peace,
Dove
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