Angry Fox in a Dream … 555 and Three Aces
April 3, 2008
By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com Ugh, I don’t feel so good. I think I’m going through a healing crisis or something, healing is such a wild ride… I did get some decent sleep last night, almost 7 hours, which is very unusual for me. I almost never remember my dreams, and I think that’s the main reason why (not sleeping long enough). I was thinking about that this morning, how so many of us don’t get a healthy amount of sleep. And sleep is so very important. Not only for our health, but it’s like meditation — that is, even though we might not consciously remember or note what comes to us, it still comes to us and it helps us in this life, it heals us – that energy that comes during those “down times.” And so, since we create it all (including all the I-don’t-have-time situations), we are avoiding this healing energy that comes from healthy sleep and meditation. Why, why do we avoid it? Because healing brings change, and we invariably resist change, especially the mega-changes that these healthy rituals bring. We fear change…
I guess I broke through my own resistance a bit last night by getting a dab more sleep. Just enough to remember a very vivid dream. Someone asked me a while back if I dreamed in color and I’ve never noticed that I have — until last night. Again, it was very vivid, but I only remember the color of the animals. And their fur resembled the color of my hair, (naturally) red or rusty orange :) I was in what was apparently my home, but it was open, no walls in front. I was looking outside through these open or missing walls. There were camels lying around, one very close to the house. I thought, ah, I’ve gotta get a pic of this for my blog, lol ;) So I went to get my camera and found a fine-looking fox in my bed, just sittin’ there like he belonged there :) I wanted him out of my bed, so I picked up a skinny leather belt and swatted him with it. It pained me to hit him, but I was afraid he would hurt me… He left my bed, went outside through the open walls, but then turned around and started walking back. He came close to me, and I raised the skinny belt to defend myself (lol) — again, I wasn’t sure to what extent it might harm me. He was glaring at me, and I was staring right back and was prepared to strike him again. I did feel afraid. He held his stare on me and I heard a very faint, close-mouthed growl. That’s when I woke up :)
I have a few ideas as to what this dream is about, but I haven’t given it enough thought yet. It is interesting though that I was reading about the fox totem just yesterday on another’s blog – even made a comment, sharing how the fox represents the Magician (in the Tarot) for me. So it’s especially interesting that I then dreamed about a fox last night. Here’s one interpretation for the camel…
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Replenishment, Survival
People with Camel totems have the ability to remain positive
in the harshest of times and experiences.
Their philosophy is always “the glass is half full.”
Camel people often have unusual sleep habits, rarely sleeping through the night.
They often power nap instead.
The appearance of a Camel totem can signify hard times ahead,
but everything will turn out good in the end.
Remain positive and all will work out. Camel people can accomplish the impossible.
Source: http://www.linsdomain.com/totems/pages/camel.htm
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Geez, so much of this seems to be pointing to difficult times, and today’s one of them (but so far, so good) – hopefully, this is fleeting energy, but as I indicated, this transformation stuff is generally a rocky ride. And it depends on how good we are at “going with the flow” and all… I feel that all of these messages are at least primarily about my health, which is definitely improving, but also clearing away of stubborn ole patterns (and I think the two go hand-in-hand).
I’ve been seeing “555″ quite a bit lately, and this morning I happened to look at a watch I keep in the bathroom (it shows the seconds too) at just the right SECOND — “5:55:55,” which was a potent 5 message. In a post I did recently(“Angelic Numerology”), it indicates this about the 5…
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“When you notice 5’s, this means significant transformation is going on within you, to bring you more into alignment, with the real you. You are being transformed into a beautiful butterfly.”
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And 5’s are aligned with the rest of these messages, not usually fun in my experience — such is the nature of “transformation.” Ya’ just have to stick it out to get to the good stuff :)
So this morning, I did my usual adrenaline-addict rush to work, angry about how I repeat this pattern every morning. But usually I shake that off and have a good day, but today, again, I just didn’t feel so good (starting to feel better now). I cut my cards when I got here, and got the most icky card in the deck. Cut again, and yet another icky one. Not a surprise — the cards draw right from our hearts/minds (our energy). I felt like crap, so it shows me crap. And when I see (am reminded of) my energy like that via the Tarot, I immediately try to change it. Not always easy, especially when you’re not feeling well physically.
I then did a spread online and it showed me as Pitiful Pearl (lol), the 5 of coins, but the Magician card was in the “Situation” position. Hmmm, am I resisting becoming the Magician that I am (that we all are)? Do I need to take some type of action for my healing…? Or am I feeling the energy of another Magician? (A problematic connection I have with another that strongly represents unhealthy relationship patterns that I desperately wish to heal. Actually I feel I have recently made significant progress in this area as well.) Hmmm, I think perhaps it’s all interrelated.
The “Near Future” position showed the World card, which can be a healing card, generally a very positive card. The “Outcome” is the Six of Swords, another healing card, but can also represent grieving or sadness — part of the healing process.
I then endeavored to change my energy and was even saying a positive affirmation, “I am love, I am love…,” that I often use to shift my energy. I drew another spread (online). It showed me as the Ace of Cups, a potent love card :) But what fascinated me, and I don’t remember ever doing this before, the first three cards, the core of the spread was all Aces, three Aces. Interesting. Shows some powerful potential (the Aces are like potent seeds). The Near Future and Outcome cards on this one look very good — I just need to hang in there :)
But the three Aces excite me, getting Aces like that invariably means something new and very cool is on the horizon :) And that was an awesome dream, even if the Fox did scare me. Did I mention that the Fox is one of my totems? Among other things, this dream may be saying that I’m still a bit frightened of my own “magic,” but my magic (represented by the Fox) knows it belongs in “my bed” ;)
Hmmm, just noticed the time is 4:11 (I started this post this morning, and finishing it up this afternoon) — that, 411, was the number sequence that came up so much on my “Magic Monday.”
My energy seems to have really improved since this morning, because I just drew a beautiful 3-card spread (yep, online again, heh), way good stuff on that one too. It’s so cool to truly know that my world is all about MY energy. I have the pow-uh ;)
Exciting times…
Peace,
Dove
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April 6, 2008 at 9:07 pm
[...] this year about “pain, resurrection and then peace,” as well as the recent dream with the camels and the [...]
April 9, 2008 at 3:17 pm
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A problematic connection I have with another that strongly represents unhealthy relationship patterns that I desperately wish to heal. Actually I feel I have recently made significant progress in this area as well
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Ha ha, when you figure out how to get rid of a problematic connection that you are chained to and heal unhealthy relationship patterns, let me know. lol
April 9, 2008 at 8:52 pm
Well I s’pose this is the starting point, eh? ;)
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“To FACE what we feared the most–the truth about ourselves. I spent several months going through complete devastation emotionally because I was facing the truth about myself, but somewhere along the line I discovered that I had grown in leaps and bounds. I was a much stronger man for it and I finally learned how to put the past in the past and forgive.”
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I think a biggee is we have to forgive ourselves, and ultimately learn to love ourselves truly and deeply. Most people can’t seem to grasp how very important that is. We’ve been taught that we’re shit (”wretches” and “sinners” …), and that we are so undeserving. So when someone tries to love us, we’re like, what kind of idiot would love me? …
There will be no TRUE love with another until we truly love ourselves. Period.
This post comes to mind in this moment…
http://dovelove.wordpress.com/2008/03/27/the-third-face-of-healing-cleansing/
And this pic I created on MS Paint one day when I was feeling a lot of rage comes to mind…
http://dovelove.wordpress.com/2007/09/07/fire-in-the-belly-what-rage-looks-like/
Do ya’ see the beast in the belly? We’ll heal our relationships, our lives, when we deal with him :) and all of our other emotions as well. That’s the “fuel” behind all of it… I’ve found that especially using that fiery energy toward creative endeavors helps tremendously :)
Peace,
Dove
April 10, 2008 at 12:04 pm
It’s weird how I stumbled onto this blog by pure accident, but the things I’ve read here seem to be things that I’ve pushed aside and am too afraid to face. I tried once last year, but I think it got a little too intense and got to be too much all at once.
The most interesting thing I’ve found is not really the ideas you’ve presented (although I find them insightful) but rather the choice of words you use. Specific phrases and words that have meaning to me are speckled throughout some of your posts and comments.
As for the beast in the belly, he’s the one guy I am afraid of dealing with. I figure he’s there all right, but anger and rage is probably the one emotion that scares me the most.
April 10, 2008 at 3:41 pm
It’s not weird at all actually… Uh, yesterday I wrote two lengthy responses to your comments and then deleted them, because, well, I have to admit, if you’re the guy who wrote all those books, the fact that you were drawn to me (my energy) spooks me.
What you’re saying (”Specific phrases and words that have meaning to me are speckled throughout some of your posts and comments.”) aligns with what I was getting yesterday.
The first response I wrote to you, I think I spent about an hour on it — and then deleted it) was about my connection to this guy in my past, how he’d stoked the rage I’d carried for years from an abusive childhood thing… I talked about the rage (a lot), a suppressed “volcano” inside of me, how I’d felt at times that if I tapped it, I could probably kill someone with my bare hands… How I had to teach myself to cower around this abusive person as a child (and beyond), how I had to pretend, because I’m very much not a cowering kinda person… Those were some of my statements. I felt it was all too personal and asked myself, why the hell am I sharing all of this with this person?
And then I visited your blog… Read a bit on Amazon :) and I saw those “speckled” places, and then it made sense. I thought, oh shit, like attracts like. This person has lived with a lot of rage… I then felt compelled to give you some indication of that, did another little comment where I was trying to convey to you that we were having a bit of an energetic connection here — the “speckled” stuff is a reflection of it :) But again I deleted it — and I’m thinking about deleting this, lol
That rage thing, it freaks me out too…and well, so do the things I read on Amazon. From what I read, it would appear that you’re not really open to my “woo-woo” stuff, lol But it is this path that has put me on the road to healing and peace… It’s not a road for the faint of heart, but it’s the only truly worthy one from my perspective and experience :) There is without question a “higher power,” but it’s within us. Truly realizing that will be our “savior.”
Your wrangle with the door wasn’t with any misinterpreted, biblical kinda “God,” it was between you and You ;)
Peace,
Dove
April 10, 2008 at 4:38 pm
Heh, let me clear up a few misinterpretations you may have gleaned from my blog before I comment on how insightful your post is. lol
1. I’m not a published author (yet) so I’m probably not the guy who who all of “those books” (what books? lol)
2. I have an affinity for your “woo woo” (lol) stuff. In fact, it’s what drew me in. The difference is, and this is probably because of my upbringing, I tend to try to ground the “woo woo” (hahaha) stuff into a more useful and real way. I do that for myself because that’s what works for me. Astology, Tarot, etc. have always fascinated me and the events that happened to me last year really made a believer out of me (although I consider myself to be quite ignorant with it and a total newbie).
3. There was a lot of misunderstanding of that one post (the one about God) on my blog and I wrote a kind of sarcastic reply to it today. I was raised in a very right-wing, pentecostal christian church so I have a very bible-belt upbringing. I left the church several years ago and in the past few years or so I have been coming to believe that there is more to it that just a biblical kind of “God”. I believe in a higher power, but I’m not yet sure exactly what that higher power is–so I consider my beliefs to be agnostic–and I’m not really sure I’ll ever really know. But because of that hardcore upbringing religious undertones and references really shine through my writing.
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Now, for the insightful part of your post.
The power within us as a savior and a redeemer. I absolutely LOVE that idea. With the journey I’ve had in the past year or so, I have really come to find a certain strength within myself. I have discovered that when I break the binds of procrastination and negativity, that I am capable of HUGE success and breakthrough. It’s uncanny. The hitch is, pushing past the procrastination and negativity is a lot easier said than done (at least for me).
Also, about my “wrangle” (lol) with the door being between me and Me. That is probably one of the most insightful thoughts I’ve read about my situation ever. Seriously. All this time I keep thinking the “fight” (not just with the door lol) that I am facing has been a fight between me and external forces (such as my ex-wife or my finances or my career) but the truth is that the fight I have been facing all along is with MYSELF. Overcoming myself and my limitations. The “enemy” (for lack of a better word) isn’t the people who have brought me down here is me.
I think I realized that, but only after you put it in those few words did I truly REALIZE that.;)
Clear as mud? Hehehe…
April 10, 2008 at 5:04 pm
Well, thank GAWD! lol ;) That you’re not that other James :) I mean, I know I still carry some of that there rage energy, but I feel I’ve made a LOT of progress with it *nervous sigh* lol ;)
But it is interesting that you align with his strong disbelief in a higher power. I actually think ya’ can know, I do ;)
Read more about what I’ve experienced, rub your eyes, be open to your own “magic,” and you’ll know too. No worries. You’re right, much easier said than done :)
But when you do begin to see the reality of your own magic, it clears away so much of that fear, and even when ya’ do allow yourself to feel fear, you simultaneously know it’s BS :) Not the magic, the fear, lol
Well, maybe not published yet, but I think you’re a great writer, James, very funny! Really, the door thing cracked me totally up. And very cool that my words are good for you as well :)
Peace,
Dove
April 10, 2008 at 5:56 pm
Oh, lol. Yeah, thank God I’m not the other James either (haha I just realized who you were talking about now lol). I wouldn’t want to get a root canal with no numbing. Heck no.
I’m iffy with the higher power thing. I hold a strong believe that he/she/it EXISTS, but I’m not sure we can ever truly realize what “it” is. I DO align with his belief that people use it as a crutch and an excuse and a way to justify their inadequacies and that the only way to get fixed is to fix yourself (and not rely on some deity to do it for you).
Thanks for the compliment. :)
April 10, 2008 at 7:02 pm
Interesting how I just hopped around reading about that guy, but I did read about that root canal thing. Although I can’t imagine ever doing it, there are people who can without feeling the pain. To me, that’s telling toward the, um, notion that all of this is an illusion. Imagine if it were all just a different kind of a dream :) One step toward that knowing, is not taking this life near so seriously… We “die” every night from our night dreams and are “reborn” again into this dream :) No biggee. It is our potent fear of dying out of this dream that holds us back soooo much, we allow others to enslave us muchly based on that most omnipotent fear of “death.” But I know, we don’t really die — that is, we never end. And even if we did, it’s not like we’ll be around to whine about it, lol ;) Energy doesn’t die.
It’s all “in our minds,” including pain. Off topic, but the mind-body connection fascinates me (all part of the/our “magic”). How we can literally “will” ourselves sick or healed or even dead. How there are people with split personalities who have a certain dis-ease while in one personality mode, and are free of said disease in another. Wild :) It’s all about our energy…
It makes sense to me that we’re all One thing. No “higher power” or anything else is outside of us. We are the higher power. Again, when you see what you/we are truly capable of, you’ll know :)
I have a multitude of “magical” experiences to draw from…and the more I acknowledge and am fascinated by them, the more they happen :) The Tarot has taught me so much, but maybe that’s not “the way” for everyone. But before the Tarot, I was blessed with this amazing day where I discovered I could do this “psychic” thing. Something I strongly questioned the legitimacy of prior to that day. But there’s no more luxury of that doubt once you’re actually doing it, heh ;)
So then my logical mind wants to make sense of that. How in the world could I SOMETIMES know things that are going to happen, or somehow know things about other people… From that, it makes sense to me that the reason I (and anyone) can know these things is because there’s only One consciousness — our separateness is an illusion. The Tarot furthered my understanding by showing me that’s it’s all about energy — our energy — we are energy. And our energy, that which we actually are, (”God”) creates it all. We are “God.” :) If you look at the bible while knowing that, it makes so much more sense. It’s all directives (multi-layered meaning) for us to have peace (”heaven”) in this life instead of suffering (”hell”). It’s not about being kind and not “sinning” so we can get to a fairytale heaven, it’s about being good to others — BECAUSE THEY ARE US. Hence, that no-suffering thing. We put suffering upon others, and it’s the same as putting suffering upon ourselves… Some call it “karma,” but it’s not about punishment, it’s about the nature of what we are, One thing :) Shoot yourself in the foot and it’s gonna affect the whole body :)
So, no worries about a “higher power,” we’re it :) We’re highly special, we are so very deserving of love and respect — it starts with us :)
There is much truth in the bible, but the popular interpretations aren’t about truth, but man’s fearful need for control.
My core beliefs: “Believe and it shall be so.” and “All things are possible.” Know these are true, truly know, and you’ll begin to see the magic, you’ll know you’re “magical.” :)
Peace,
Dove
April 10, 2008 at 7:54 pm
Ok, I’ll be straight with you here. That one put a small blip on my “woo woo” meter. lol I agree with about half of what you said. Some of the things I didn’t agree with (and this is probably one of those “different strokes” kinda thing):
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To me, that’s telling toward the, um, notion that all of this is an illusion. Imagine if it were all just a different kind of a dream
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Oh wait, this is one I actually kind of agree with. I just wanted to comment that I used to joke around and say something dumb like “Hey, wait if this isn’t real? What if we’re all just sort of sitting in a room somewhere and this is a dream?” lol
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We are the higher power. Again, when you see what you/we are truly capable of, you’ll know
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I strongly disagree with this one. Not to make light of the power we DO have as people, but I do not think that the power exists in us. No, I may not buy into the traditional version of “God”, but I do believe that the higher power exists outside of us or else more people would be able to tap into it.
It’s interesting that the “power” we tap general comes through some form of meditation (i.e. yoga or even praying for the relgious types). Some would argue that that is proof that the power is within is. I would argue that it’s a way to clear ourselves of the clutter we put inside of us and “empty out” so that we can receive that power we need. The whole process of meditation and praying or what not is about “emptying out” all the junk we put in ourselves in a given day and tapping into a new “energy” (as you call it).
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the reason I (and anyone) can know these things is because there’s only One consciousness — our separateness is an illusion.
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In my mind, I view the “one consciousness” you describe here as perhaps a possible candidate for said higher power. I don’t think that all of the human race is just one consciousness or energy, but I do believe we’re sectored into “groups”. I buy into the whole “soulmate” idea, but I don’t relate it as just one man for one woman or whatever. I believer that a soulmate is someone with a similar “energy” pool (now you got me on that word lol) as us. I DO believe that out of that pool there is one man or woman who is most compatible with you (this is sort of offtopic I guess), but that’s what I’d call a “twin flame”. It’s highly unlikely to actually meet that person in this life though.
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Some call it “karma,”
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I both love and hate the idea of karma. I love it because I believe in it wholeheartedly and hate it because it’s bit me in the ass quite a few times in my life. I have one really unbelievable coincidence happen in my life that I attribute wholeheartedly to karma.
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There is much truth in the bible, but the popular interpretations aren’t about truth, but man’s fearful need for control.
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Control is a nasty thing. All of us struggle with the need to control our lives. It’s the reason religion exists in the first place…to assign some form of control over our knowledge of the unknowledgable and confusions that science doesn’t explain.
Control can really consume you (it did me and I really hope that I have come as far as I think I have in dealing with those issues) and I think it can REALLY get out of control when it is fueled by anger or jealousy.
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Anyways, your ideas in that post are sort of dancing around Buddhism a bit I think (something I only know a little about). So, I have a reading suggestion for ya.
“An Open Heart” by the Dalai Lama
It was a fantastic read and I really loved the ideas presented.
April 10, 2008 at 9:01 pm
I speak the truth Keem-o-saubi, lol ;) But I understand, I had to experience it to believe it too :) We’ll all get there in the right way and time for us.
I claim no religion, and endeavor to shun other labels as well. Freedom is my “religion” :)
Peace,
Dove