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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Seriously, I noticed those “possibly related posts” the other day, and immediately thought, “Icky.”   I wouldn’t mind if it was just linked to my other posts — and that they actually were related.  Not a post about healthy breasts linked to one on peace and creativity *eyes rolling*  Although, now that I think about it, those two could be a good match :)  But all of these outside links to clearly unrelated stuff, and articles that I don’t necessarily align with, or very much don’t…well, that spurred a queasy feeling and thoughts of deleting my whole blog if I couldn’t find the remedy… 

But, yay, thankfully no need for that.  I just found the buttons to delete those most unwelcome links.  Click, click, off they go, and now I’m doin’ the happy dance that they’re gone, lol    Yep, I feel cleanse-duh ;)  I mean, it’s like having someone sling chocolate syrup on your new party dress, heh – sure, more people will notice you, lol, but is that the kind of attention ya’ really want?

So for those who want to tidy-up their own blog in this way, here are the easy steps to the happy dance:

Go to the “Design” button.  Click…  “Extras“  Click…  Check the box that does the deal, while carefully sidestepping their sly and oh-so-subtle nudge toward keeping the syrup on your dress and the supposed benefits therein.  “Save“  Then let the happy dance commence.

Empowerin’, ain’t it?  ;) 

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I “play” with a regular deck of cards here at work through the day, using it like the Tarot. I find it so interesting that I’ve now manifested two consecutive jobs with enough “down time” to do this at my desk — both in private for the most part, and with my employers’ consent, as long as my job gets done in the interim :)

Anyway, yesterday I was amazed at all the Jacks I was drawing. At one point, and I don’t think I’ve ever done this before, I did a 3-card spread (past, present, future) and all three were Jacks. Some see the Jacks like Knights in the Tarot, but I see them more like the Pages. The Pages can be about new beginnings, but I was reading last night that they are also about CHANGE. And this aligns with the other messages I’ve been getting. I’m at work and a guy just walked in with an “11″ on the back of his tee shirt.  I take that as a confirmation of that last statement, which I had just typed. The 11/2 is my Life Path number…

I’m still pulling Jacks today, it kinda freaks me out — anticipating change. I can see certain changes are in the works, good changes. Very good. I’m eager for many areas of my life to improve/change, and they are, have been, slowly but surely.  I have to admit, it’s kinda scary…but I’m still so eager for certain things to change…so eager.  The fear aspect of it brings to mind another card I’ve been drawing out the wazoo for what seems like months now, the King of Cups.  That card often represents repeating old patterns, and I’m thinking that he “pops up” around those times when good change is “threatening” to happen, heh  “He” seems to want to keep not-so-good things the way they are… 

Hmm, someone just called and said the word, “Scorpion.”  That’s a totem I’ve gotten many times right before significant change has happened in my life.  More fearful feelings cropping up with that.  The Scorpion may well be one of my main totems.  I’ve even been stung by one — right before my whole life changed in a big way, but it was good change…er, ultimately.  Note, ya’ don’t want to be stung by a scorpion, very painful!  (I like to tell people that I have scorpion blood now, heh-heh)  And it was just a baby one — AND it stung my “baby” (little) finger.  The “Fool” (baby) Tarot card comes to mind with that … it happened right before I became a “baby” in the metaphysical world :)  

Here’s an excerpt from the first Scorpion totem interpretation I came upon in googling just now…(Very on-point.)

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The Fierce Scorpion Totem possesses the following virtues: Metamorphosis, openness to change, mystery, independence, self-protection, endurance, ferocity, self-possession, fearlessness, power of passion, masterful presence, magnetic personality, determination, personal intensity, willpower, tenacity, forcefulness, tranquility and dignity.

http://www.manizone.co.uk/scorpion-animal-totem-a-34.html

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Ah, the Jeep.  Yesterday, late afternoon, after having pulled all those Jacks, there was a red Jeep parked outside and on the back of it, there was the coolest-looking wheel cover on the spare.  As soon as I saw it, it grabbed me — it was totally a giant “Death” card.  I know that’s an in-style theme nowadays, and that’s something I would have had a strong aversion to in the past.  But having used the Tarot for so long, I am now much more comfortable with it, and any other “death” symbol, which atually represents ANY kind of transformation (big change) in one’s life — not just a physical death, which is rarely the meaning.  Some newer Tarot decks opt for calling it “Transformation” instead of “Death.”

This life-sized ”Transformation” card on the back of the Jeep, it was really a very attractive image of a skeleton, lol   I loved it, it looked great with the red Jeep.  And then I noticed the skeleton had red hair, which is the color of my hair :)  Talk about a mucho blatant message…”You’re in for some mega-change, girlie.”  But not only did the image not spur fear in me, I actually loved it — that speaks of good change.  Even so, seeing a giant “Death” card … that’s wild.  And this after pulling all the Jacks — at one point, I even pulled a Jack in response to “What are all the Jacks about?” lol ;) 

I’m also considering that this has something to do with my anger, which calls itself “Jack.” :)  I see Jack as my “fire,” and I’ve created some amazing things strongly fueled by “him,” including one of my favorite MS Paint pics, “Fire in the Belly.”  But like I’ve said in other posts, like fire, we have to be very careful in using that kind of power (see Scorpion excerpt above, “power of passion”).  But also like fire, there’s nothing else like it, and it is a gift to be honored/respected and appreciated — not hated, denied and pushed down.  It will harm and destroy ONLY when we treat it in that disrespectful way…like fire.

Okay, well, I went off on a lot of winding roads there, but perhaps it all ties together.  It seems certain that big change is on its way in my life — and perhaps for those who are reading this :)  And for sure our world is in store for some major change.  I’m holding to the belief that it will all be for the better.

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  That seems to be the theme of the day, Peace  :) 

Things are going well at work and, although there is a bit of a “Tower” thing in my personal life  (my computer recently died of old age, and this is at least part of what the vultures and 411 spoke of), things are still going pretty well otherwise.  This all reminds me of my “Peace Eagle” blog…so many messages all tying together.  The “Tower” energy destroys the old, and then the “the peace eagle” (vulture) represents clearing it all away for a fresh new beginning.

Relative to the peace theme, I recently wrote the following in a comment on my blog, “Talking Trees.” 

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Um, I’m still doing that unfortunately, but I’m not giving up on finding the “cure.”  :)   The thing is, I know the cure, the problem is breaking through the blocks, the subconscious fear, I have about that unfamiliar thing.

I caught myself, (er, actually the Tarot caught me, heh) this morning reaching back to those old patterns — a big bunch of negative thinking.  Letting it override my awareness of the perils in doing such a thing.  So I asked the Tarot about the issue my mind was trying to stir up.  Sometimes the Tarot will totally ignore the question and simply show us what’s really important.  The card I first drew was the 4 of Swords — my mind said, “Peace.”  It’s a card about resting, withdawing after troubles to find healing and peace.  I drew a “clarity” card, the Hermit card.  It’s about withdrawing, getting quiet…  I drew yet another card, Two of Swords.  With that one, very much a “peace” card — especially beside those others, it was apparent that the Universe was advising me to clear out all that negative thinking, and find peace.  So grateful for my Tarot…

If that wasn’t a strong enough message, while getting ready for work and putting my make-up on, a memory of an item I loved as a kid popped into my mind.  A choker that I wore in junior high (the 70’s).  It was a simple suede band, gorgeous deep burgundy color, a cool teardrop-shaped gold peace sign dangled from the center.  I loved it, and as I was wondering why the memory of it came to mind — something I hadn’t thought about in lotsa years, I realized it was yet another message of “Peace.” :)  The Universe really has a lovely way of driving a point home, lol ;)

Then I started thinking about how it was a “choker.”  Hmmm.  Seems kinda contradictory to peace.  Something that chokes — and it “chokes” my throat, 5th chakra — expression.  This seems to be an area in which I’ve long had a problem.  Holding back, choking it back, “swallowing” it all…  No outlet for so many years for a lot of creativity. Having done pretty much nothing in the area of creativity for most of my life, I now wanna do it all … writing, painting, sculpting, web design, photography, filmmaking … 

Years ago, the only time I’ve ever tried this thing called “scrying” — a type of divination — I saw some wild, but very interesting, visions.  Ya’ look into a mirror until ya’ “see” something.  Among the things I saw was an arm that reached out to choke me.  It brought tears when I realized it was my arm.  Oh shit, I’m here at work, in public, and the memory of that is bringing tears.  Okay-okay, doing the eye-fanning thing now, lol ;)

But I’ve made a lot of progress since then, lotsa learning, lotsa growing, and finally starting to express all that held-back stuff, and doing that all-important creating — in those fleeting moments when I can wrestle my resistance to the ground, heh  It’s really just beginning though — I still feel like there’s a volcano of creativity inside me, so much to express, release, create :)  I know that creating thing is so very important for our health and PEACE of mind.  We are meant to create — we are “creators.”  (Little “gods” if you will.)  It is essential for our healing, and consequently for the healing of the world, crucial so as to find true peace, “Heaven on Earth” :)

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Well, I haven’t written anything in a while, so I thought I’d write a bit about some magic that happened earlier today :) 

It was kinda toasty in my apartment while getting ready for work, so I raised my bedroom window for some of that cool morning air.  Almost immediately afterward, a crow swooped down very close.  “Caw, caw, caw, caw,” he said, heh  I counted the caws, I always do :)  Again, it cawed four times — two sets of four.  Hmm, I thought, so whadaya’ sayin’ to me crow baby? ;)  I thought about how I’d elaborated on the number 44 a couple days earlier on Miki’s blog.  A way cool artist, she is.  It was “stuff” that came to me about one of her recent paintings.  It was about the moon, creativity and creating “bridges” with it … and hiding our “magic.”

I thought about how the number 4 is the number for the Emperor in the Tarot.  So I’m thinking, if the Crow is referencing the Emperor, he’s speaking either about something regarding my employer — or a guy in my past who once referenced himself as “the boss” … and who has the astrological correlation to the Emperor, Aries.  He also has the Raven (Crow) totem.  My Tarot cards have often referenced him as the Emperor.

Upon arriving to work and opening my email, it was clear what the Crow had been speaking of.  There was an email from “the boss” guy, and immediately above his email was an email from a Tarot site that sends a card interpretation periodically, which I generally take just as if I drew it from a Tarot deck.  The card?  The Emperor :)

Of course, it has its “ill-dignified” side, but the Emperor is generally a great card to draw – especially if you’re asking the Tarot about some endeavor you’re considering.  Here’s the interpretation that came in my email.

Peace,
Dove

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The Emperor - Strong and Assertive

I’ve done a lot of international traveling on my own recently.
It wasn’t an easy decision to make, to go off traveling on
my own, but as The Emperor kept appearing in my readings, I
knew I could make a success of it.

The Emperor can represent a man of significance in your
life, such as a husband or lover, or perhaps a father or
close friend.  In a positive sense, the card signifies that
this man will stand by you and give you the support you
need.

The Emperor represents a powerful ally, someone who can
influence people and events in their own favor, and is
often a man of authority or position such as a boss, or
professional advisor.

If the Emperor appears amidst more negative cards however,
it may be a warning that a certain man is being too bossy
or domineering towards you, or perhaps you are the one
exhibiting these ‘qualities’ towards another.

Taking note of the cards that surround The Emperor in your
readings can help you understand whether the man it could
be representing is a positive or negative influence on your
life.

Alternatively, The Emperor’s appearance in your readings
may suggest that it is time for you to harness this
somewhat ‘masculine’ power within yourself and express your
own authority.

If you are faced with a key choice or decision and The
Emperor appears, it’s probably time for you to find the
courage and confidence required to influence people and
events in your favor and ensure your success.

The Emperor is often associated with Aries, which is a
strong and assertive astrological fire sign.

So look out for this powerful ally in your readings, and
allow yourself to show your strength and assertiveness when
it’s needed.

Love and Joy,
Alison

Source:  www.lotustarot.com

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I started writing this on Saturday, but only had 30 minutes before quittin’ time, so I’m going to finish it now.  It’s a bit of an update on the “411″ or “Magic Monday” thing and all the vultures that came out-of-the-blue a week ago…

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By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Lordy, there’s so much synchronicity here, it’s gonna be a challenge to remember it all.  Okay, on “Magic Monday” I got the number 411…  And then the Vulture totem last Saturday (exactly a week ago)… 

So yesterday was the day, 4-11-08.  Nothing really spectacular happened, but I’ve gotten dates in the past and the “thing” happened the day before or after.  A “spectacular” thing happened today, Saturday, 4-12-08.  The second major car accident next to my workplace since I’ve been here (the first was about a year and a half ago, a Jaguar and a semi, head-on collision…)   That one foretold a major “Tower” (Tarot card) experience for me that began about a month or so later — lasted about 4 months, but had a “happy ending.”  Geez, I’m hoping this one isn’t foretelling anything similar, I’ve been rode hard by those “Tower” experiences in the last few years…  And I just noted that the Vulture is on the Animal-Wise Tarot’s Tower card.  Lovely.  Even so, I’m hoping this one is pointing more toward the blissful end of “enlightenment” and since it seems to be tied to the 411(information?) … and “magic,” maybe that’s the case.  Hmm, nice, I just got a “freedom” message – that’s another interpretation for the Tower card, and healing is yet another.  And all of those are kinda intermingled…

This accident today (Saturday, 12th) I could have been a perfect witness for if I’d just been looking up from my desk — I could see the aftermath perfectly from my desk chair.  But a co-worker actually had to draw my attention to it.  He told me the details.  I noticed the car that had caused the accident was yellow, it was totalled…I could see the front all crunched in.  I focused on the yellow, the color of the third chakra, solar plexus.  Noted that this is where the energy of our “will” is, it also makes me think of the sun (something I feel I’m still not getting enough of for my health/healing).  I found it intriguing that the cars landed almost exactly where all the vultures were swirling last Saturday.  The red car was the one hit, it flipped a couple of times and then landed back on its wheels.  That driver hopped out of the passenger side, seemed okay…at first.  He got on his cell phone and then dropped to the ground.  A guy here said he must have been pumped with adrenaline, unaware he was hurt — the other guy seemed okay.

One fire truck was in my view, it had the number 2 on it.  It reminded me of how I’d been seeing the Two of Cups in the Tarot a lot lately.  That card often speaks of a love connection, but I think it’s been referencing my healing during this time — maybe both.  Hmmm, a reference to healing…is my “will” all crunched up (the yellow car) and/or is this yet another message that I’m not getting enough sun?  And has/does my crunched-up will adversely affect my root chakra (red car, spins wildly, but still manages to land upright)?   Root chakra is about the physical (grounding, health, prosperity).  I’m doing okay at the moment, better than in a long time — but am I just running on “adrenaline” (like the guy who didn’t know he was hurt)?  That adrenaline thing is certainly an issue with me, I’m invariably panting when I arrive to work (from my rush to get here), can’t seem to shake that “need” to feel panicked… Just one of the many “issues” that I feel reflects trauma from childhood…

A few days ago I did have a less earth-shaking ”Tower” experience and I feel this might have been part of the reference to this week (the 4-11-08 message), and I’m in the process of “healing” it.  I had planned part of that for this evening, but kept getting negative signs all day, and this car accident was the final straw.  I called and cancelled my plans.  Ahhh, I immediately felt better — yep, my “gut” was telling me this wasn’t the day for this important “outing” …

Wow, just so much overlapping “stuff” here.  But the trees part of it fascinates me.  Where I had planned on going this evening (but will now be going next week), the route there involves three streets, and I noticed they all have tree names (Ash, Walnut, etc)   That seemed so cool…  So I searched for the symbolic meaning of a couple of them just now and they both are on point as to what’s been coming up in the last few days.  Like yesterday – I did a comment on a friend’s blog, {< — Update:  I had the wrong link for the comment on sacrifice, but it’s corrected now) speaking of the Hanged Man card and sacrifice…  She and I also had an awesome synchronicity the day before 4-11 (on April 10th), see the first two comments.  “Double Magic“? ;)  Another sync with she and I is, well, ”wood” is sort of a synchronous connection between she and I.  Oh, man, there’s so much it’s hard to even write it all here.   I forgot…right after I made the call to cancel my plans for this evening, and felt the relief of doing that, of trusting all the negative “vibes” I’d been feeling about it all day, I looked outside and noticed a license plate on a car parked in our lot that said, “Elm.” :)  Yet another tree.  Here’s the Elm interpretation I found:

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Elm tree symbolism includes strength of will and intuition. During the 18th and 19th centuries, elms were popular as ornamentals by virtue of their rapid growth and variety of foliage and forms. This popularity lasted until World War I when the consequences of hostilities, notably in Germnany, and the outbreak of Dutch elm disease saw the elm slide into horticultural decline. Elm wood is valued for its interlocking grain, and consequent resistance to splitting, with significant uses in wheels, chairs and coffins. The wood is also resistant to decay when permanently wet, and hollowed trunks were widely used as water pipes during the medieval period in Europe.

Source:  http://www.livingartsoriginals.com/infoforests.htm

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Now the place where I was supposed to go (but, again, I cancelled/postponed) was on Ash.  Here’s the Ash symbolic meaning…

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Ash tree symbolism includes sacrifice, sensitivity and higher awareness. The wood is white, strong, and straight-grained. Ash is the timber of choice for production of baseball bats and tool handles. The wood is also favorable for furniture and flooring. Ash is a large deciduous tree with smooth, gray bark on young trees which becomes fissured with age. The leaves are green above, white below, and turn yellow, red, or purple in the fall.

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Two other “secondary” streets were part of this, but I didn’t see them on this site, so maybe they aren’t as significant.  Anyway, I just had a minute to put a bit of this here…  There’s really so much more, like with the stuck door here at work, which everyone tried to fix and no one could yesterday (mentioned it on above-linked blog).  It was finally fixed this morning.  A resistance (mine, it would seem) message…  So it’s all about resistance, will, sacrifice, healing.  But thankfully, the door was finally fixed today :)

OH MY GAWD — I just looked out the window, and in the very same parking spot where the car was with the “ELM” on the tag is a truck and guess what the number is on the license plate :) …  4 1 1 …  I’m talking a couple of minutes, between seeing those two.  So the Universe is tying the meaning of the “Elm” symbol to the 411 message.

This is just PART of what I’ve seen today — the synchronicity is so prolific sometimes.  It’s like it’s growing to a much higher “intensity” in my life.  So awesome, so amazing — the tree symbolism is so cool!  I’m just trying to convey to those who think I dream all this up or something that this life is so magical, but it only becomes so when we open our eyes to it… 

The thing is, I’ve seen things like this for years, but what’s different and so exciting in this moment is the time factor — it’s happening so much more quickly.  Like on “Magic Monday,” I was stunned to see the 411’s just ping-ping-ping like that, within minutes of each other — just like the “Elm” and today’s “411.”  That’s a rush, even for someone who already knows the magic of it all :)

And the more we see it, the more we see it :)  Sorry I typed this so fast, it’s kind of a jumbled mess and sooo much left out, but I just wanted to share the tree thing :) … and the magic.  This reality is not at all what MOST PEOPLE THINK.  It’s in no way mediocre, it is totally magical…we are totally magical.  BUT, the way it works…if a magician (the way the Tarot references us) believes this reality is all mediocre, then mediocre it is – we’re Magicians :)  We always get to choose (will) — and that’s something I “heard” often when I first began to do readings.  “It’s your choice.”  It’s always our choice as to what reality we create.  It really is all just a different kind of a ”dream” :) 

Now we just need to discover why we’re creating a “dream” where we’re manipulated, controlled and enslaved for the enrichment of others – while this amazing dream slips through our fingers…  Hint, it’s all rooted in fear, especially the fear of “death” from this dream, and simply taking it all too seriously…

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I can hear a choir of certain individuals spewing things like, “Well, I went to public schools, and I did gist fine…self-esteem, puleez.”  Uh, yeah okay.  I have to admit, there’s a part of me that wants to reference such people as well, idiots, but really that’s not necessarily the case.  The fact is we’ve been programmed, brainwashed, into accepting all this controlling crap — and gawd forbid that we should question any of it.  Our school system is just one of our multitudinous controlling systems, but it’s one that packs the biggest punch after religion, in my view.  They grab us when we’re just babes and fill our little minds and hearts with energy (thoughts, beliefs…fears) that governs the rest of our lives…  Read more about that here.  Even as adults, we continue to draw from that energy (both conscious and subconscious) and create our lives with it, with those “beliefs.” 

Dove

From John Gatto’s “Dumbing Us Down”
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In his speech, “The Seven-Lesson Schoolteacher,” Gatto describes the seven lessons that are taught in all public schools by all teachers in America, whether they know it or not.  He writes:

The first lesson I teach is confusion. Everything I teach is out of context.  I teach the un-relating of everything.  I teach dis-connections….Even in the best of schools a close examination of curriculum and its sequences turns up a lack of coherence, full of internal contradictions….Confusion is thrust upon kids by too many strange adults, each working along with only the thinnest relationship with each other, pretending, for the most part, to an expertise they do not possess….In a world where home is only a ghost, because both parents work…or because something else has left everybody too confused to maintain a family relation, I teach you how to accept confusion as your destiny.

The second lesson I teach is class position….The children are numbered so that if any get away they can be returned to the right class….My job is to make them like being locked together with children who bear numbers like their own.…If I do my job well, the kids can’t even imagine themselves somewhere else, because I’ve shown them how to envy and fear the better classes and how to have contempt for the dumb classes….That’s the real lesson of any rigged competition like school.  You come to know your place.

The third lesson I teach is indifference….When the bell rings I insist they drop whatever it is we have been doing and proceed quickly to the next work station.  They must turn on and off like a light switch….Bells inoculate each undertaking with indifference.

The fourth lesson I teach is emotional dependency.  By stars and red checks, smiles and frowns, prizes, honors, and disgraces, I teach kids to surrender their will to the predestinated chain of command.

The fifth lesson I teach is intellectual dependency….It is the most important lesson, that we must wait for other people better trained than ourselves, to make the meanings of our lives….[Only], the teacher can determine what my kids must study, or rather, only the people who pay me can make those decisions, which I then enforce.  If I’m told that evolution is a fact instead of a theory, I transmit that as ordered, punishing deviants who resist what I have been told to tell them to think….Successful children do the thinking I assign them with a minimum of resistance and a decent show of enthusiasm….Bad kids fight this, of course, even though they lack the concepts to know what they are fighting, struggling to make decisions for themselves about what they will learn and when they will learn it…Fortunately there are tested procedures to break the will of those who resist; it is more difficult, naturally, if the kids have respectable parents who come to their aid, but that happens less and less in spite of the bad reputation of schools.  No middle-class parents I have ever met actually believe that their kid’s school is one of the bad ones.  No one single parent in twenty-six years of teaching.

The sixth lesson I teach is provisional self-esteem….The lesson of report cards, and tests is that children should not trust themselves or their parents but should instead rely on the evaluation of certified officials.  People need to be told what they are worth.

The seventh lesson I teach is that one can’t hide.  I teach students they are always watched, that each is under constant surveillance by myself and my colleagues….The meaning of constant surveillance and denial of privacy is that no one can be trusted, that privacy is not legitimate.

Source:  http://www.johntaylorgatto.com/bookstore/dumbdnblum1.htm

 

Free Homeschooling (link from Gatto’s site)

 

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I know it’s not a particularly attractive bird, but the Vulture is, oddly enough, called “the peace eagle.”  I just learned that yesterday.  This totem came to me in a big way yesterday. 

We were having this event at work, a few hundred people were congregated outside.  I was sitting at my desk, but I’m right at the front and can see everything outside (glass walls).  The event was about to conclude, and all of a sudden this massive number of vultures appeared over the crowd.  I tried to count them, but they were swirling around and it was just too many to count.  I’d guess maybe 10 or 15 vultures. 

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Vulture Totem Interpretations…

Death and Rebirth
New Vision

The Vulture is the symbol of death and rebirth,
the mother symbol,
and represents purification.
For those with this totem,
you will be noticed more for what you do than
how you appear.

Vulture or Condor
teaches us how to soar above our limitations.
It is linked to the Griffin.
This Totem is a permanent totem; once it enters your life
it will be with you always, through your numerous lifetimes.

You may start to see auras and colors around people;
Vulture can help teach you how to accomplish this through patience and vision.

Vultures teach you how to soar without using much energy,
how to ride the thermal winds instead of flapping.
Go with the flow.
Use your own energy powerfully and efficiently.

Vulture is associated with the sense of smell and aromatherapy is a good tool
to use to connect with this Totem.

The Vulture promises us that no matter how difficult things are at the moment,
rescue and change are imminent.

Soar above the drudgeries of every day life through spirit.
And Vulture/Condor is there to protect you in this journey.

Source: http://www.linsdomain.com/totems/pages/vulture.htm

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More Vulture totem intepretations:

http://www.wildspeak.com/vilturj/totems/wvulture.html

http://westmanpreacher.blogspot.com/2007/09/vulture-as-totem.html

http://www.sayahda.com/cyc5.html

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It freaked me out, because that’s the Universe speaking to me in a big way.  I’ve gotten the vulture totem in the past, but it was usually just one or two of them.  Geez, it makes me wonder what’s about to happen.  The date I’d been getting on “Magic Monday” is rapidly approaching and I’m wondering if this totem is pointing to this day.  It also reminds me of the message I’d gotten earlier this year about “pain, resurrection and then peace,” as well as the recent dream with the camels and the fox.

I’m not thrilled about the need for more pain in my healing journey, but I got another message last night that may have been pointing to that “pain,” and it’s aligned with what I figured this previous message spoke of.  I’ve had this one book for years and have been trying to get myself to read it recently.  It’s about healing one’s eyesight naturally, it’s called “Take Off Your Glasses and See” by Jacob Liberman.  (Note: In no way did the mention of “new vision” in the above Vulture totem interpretation spur me to this book on healing one’s eyesight — in fact, I just noticed that synchronicity in posting it here today.)

Last night I finally picked it up.  I did as I often do with books, before opening, I asked to be shown the most important part in the book for me at this time.  When I opened it, there was an emphasis on the importance of both pages.  Here’s a potent excerpt from those pages, the first thing I read on the left page…

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 …”we spend years resisting exactly what we need in order to cure our ‘nonexistent incurable disorders.’ 

Since we spend many years avoiding those difficult feelings, it can be quite a challenge at first to acknowledge them.  However when we begin to feel them fully, painful, self-defeating emotional patterns actually do begin to shift.  Emotional healing seems to take place as we allow ourselves to feel our deepest pain.  You could say that this process is like allowing a fever to run its course rather than suppressing it with aspirin.”

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It seems apparent to me that this is the pain that was referenced in that earlier message.  I feel like I have scratched the surface of feeling this pain, but there’s so much from my past… It’s overwhelming.  And my anger seems to be what I’m most able to bring up … I don’t think I’ve ever allowed myelf to feel grief and related emotions …  That’s probably because I feel strong when I feel my anger, and like most people, I very much don’t like feeling vulnerable and weak, as those other emotions seem to represent.  Ya’ know, “strong” people just “shake off” those types of things, like an idiot told me in the past, heh  { Update:  In re-reading this, I’d very much like to delete that last statement per the “idiot” thing, but I prefer to be honest, to allow myself to have that honest expression, and to give less of a damn what people think of me for it.  To those who would judge me for being so “imperfect,” bite me, I’m human…oh, and have a nice day, lol ;) }

A little synchronicity with the aspirin.  A guy yesterday during the above-mentioned event came up to me, said he had a headache, and asked me if I had an aspirin…  I had a great day yesterday, but kept seeing the number 5 a lot.  I turned back to see the title of the chapter where I’d opened the eyesight book.  It is Chapter 5, “Seeing Through the Fear”  I had a terrible anxiety attack last night, lasting a few hours, as usual.  As enjoyable as the event was yesterday, I never realize that such things, the number of people, the energy of it all, are overwhelming me… 

More from the two pages…

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“Think of the last time you felt really uncomfortable.  Recall that feeling as vividly as you can.  Re-experience it as completely as possible.  What happened to trigger that feeling? What was your automatic response?”

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Geez, I could think of several of these moments yesterday.  About the only time I don’t feel them is when I’m alone.  When I first arrived at work, a girl that relieves me for breaks was at my desk and the guys were around the desk chatting with her.  I felt threatened.  Why the hell was she at my desk at this time of day? (I do like her and there was a good reason that she was there.)  …  But I didn’t show my insecure feelings, quite the contrary.  I exuded confidence, chimed right in with the conversation, was joking around, and immediately got everyone to laughing.  Even so, that was likely the first “straw” on the camel’s back of my anxiety attack last night.  Then my boss seemed like he was angry with me (of course, I always think that, lol), and I often think this just because he walks passed my desk without speaking (several times per day, he’s busy for gawd’s sake!).  Geez.  And when guys, especially strangers – or just people — get close to me.  And when this one guy from the event yesterday was “hitting” on me, trying to get me to go out with him, very uncomfortable.  I never know what to say when I totally don’t want to go out with someone, a very unnerving situation for me…  Lordy, everything makes me UNCOMFORTABLE.  An intuitive in my past told me that I’m pretty much always in “fight or flight” mode…  I’ve just learned to live with it.  So where do ya’ start with all those uncomfortable situations?  Overwhelming.  I think that’s why I don’t.

What concerns me though is by not doing so, I fuel the likelihood of repeating painful patterns.  More from the pages…

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“Like vision problems, our most uncomfortable feelings are chronic.  They keep coming back until we realize that the problem isn’t outside ourselves, in the other person or the external events.  The outside events simply create a resonance, a self-recognition, in our vibrational field.  …

“Now think back to that painful experience or any other difficult experience with a strong emotional charge.  Have those feelings come up again since then?  How long did it take before you had those feelings again?  Then, no matter what changes you decided to make after the first experience, did you eventually get into another situation that felt similar? 

Usually before you know it, you become involved in another experience with the same feeling.  This cycle can continue indefinitely.  How can we learn to shift out of those blocked places?  Sometimes it seems that the harder we try, the more stuck we feel.  But there is a remedy:  awareness. 

…  Awareness is simply a matter of experiencing every moment of life as fully as possible.  Greater awareness does not happen when we try to pay close attention — that effort actually requires a narrowing of one’s focus.  True awareness is an expansive, effortless process. 

Humans have developed a variety of wonderful tricks to avoid being “in the moment.”  Eastern gurus say that the majority of our mental and physical activities arise from the urge to distract ourselves from our awareness rather than out of any truly purposeful need.  I’ve found that the desire to avoid seeing life fully (and therefore feeling life fully) is also the fundamental origin of vision problems.  Most people become bored, anxious, or uncomfortable when they have to sit quietly for even a few minutes … those disconcerting feelings are why we continually seek distractions, and why the Eastern spiritual traditions place so much emphasis on meditation.”

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Hmmm, this reminds me of a guy I know who can’t sit still for 5 minutes.  I’m sadly so much like that guy, and that being the case, I’ve got a lot of healing to do, lol ;)  This morning I was looking at a “coffee table” book I’m going to give to a friend at work next week.  I kept looking for this one beautiful picture that I like so much.  I couldn’t find it, it was annoying, I fanned through the book several times looking for it to no avail.  Finally, I stopped my wild searching and with a nano-second’s worth of energy, asked to be directed to the pic that I sought.  I closed the book and, as always, I poked a fingernail into the book’s pages randomly.  I opened it to a lovely picture of purple flowers.  I said, “No, I like this picture, but it’s not the one.”  I turned the page (one page) and there it was, the beautiful picture I had been seeking :) 

Hmmm, the answers are so close, we just need to settle down from all our fearing and wild seeking, and just ask, and trust that our healing, the beauty, is just a page away ;)

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Ugh, I don’t feel so good.  I think I’m going through a healing crisis or something, healing is such a wild ride…  I did get some decent sleep last night, almost 7 hours, which is very unusual for me.  I almost never remember my dreams, and I think that’s the main reason why (not sleeping long enough).  I was thinking about that this morning, how so many of us don’t get a healthy amount of sleep.  And sleep is so very important.  Not only for our health, but it’s like meditation — that is, even though we might not consciously remember or note what comes to us, it still comes to us and it helps us in this life, it heals us – that energy that comes during those “down times.”  And so, since we create it all (including all the I-don’t-have-time situations), we are avoiding this healing energy that comes from healthy sleep and meditation.  Why, why do we avoid it?  Because healing brings change, and we invariably resist change, especially the mega-changes that these healthy rituals bring.  We fear change…

I guess I broke through my own resistance a bit last night by getting a dab more sleep.  Just enough to remember a very vivid dream.  Someone asked me a while back if I dreamed in color and I’ve never noticed that I have — until last night.  Again, it was very vivid, but I only remember the color of the animals.   And their fur resembled the color of my hair, (naturally) red or rusty orange :)   I was in what was apparently my home, but it was open, no walls in front.  I was looking outside through these open or missing walls.  There were camels lying around, one very close to the house.  I thought, ah, I’ve gotta get a pic of this for my blog, lol ;)  So I went to get my camera and found a fine-looking fox in my bed, just sittin’ there like he belonged there :)  I wanted him out of my bed, so I picked up a skinny leather belt and swatted him with it.  It pained me to hit him, but I was afraid he would hurt me…  He left my bed, went outside through the open walls, but then turned around and started walking back.  He came close to me, and I raised the skinny belt to defend myself (lol) — again, I wasn’t sure to what extent it might harm me.  He was glaring at me, and I was staring right back and was prepared to strike him again.  I did feel afraid.  He held his stare on me and I heard a very faint, close-mouthed growl.  That’s when I woke up :)

I have a few ideas as to what this dream is about, but I haven’t given it enough thought yet.  It is interesting though that I was reading about the fox totem just yesterday on another’s blog – even made a comment, sharing how the fox represents the Magician (in the Tarot) for me.  So it’s especially interesting that I then dreamed about a fox last night.  Here’s one interpretation for the camel…

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Replenishment, Survival

People with Camel totems have the ability to remain positive
in the harshest of times and experiences.
Their philosophy is always “the glass is half full.”

Camel people often have unusual sleep habits, rarely sleeping through the night.
They often power nap instead.

The appearance of a Camel totem can signify hard times ahead,
but everything will turn out good in the end.
Remain positive and all will work out. Camel people can accomplish the impossible.

Source: http://www.linsdomain.com/totems/pages/camel.htm

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Geez, so much of this seems to be pointing to difficult times, and today’s one of them (but so far, so good) – hopefully, this is fleeting energy, but as I indicated, this transformation stuff is generally a rocky ride.  And it depends on how good we are at “going with the flow” and all…  I feel that all of these messages are at least primarily about my health, which is definitely improving, but also clearing away of stubborn ole patterns (and I think the two go hand-in-hand).

I’ve been seeing “555″ quite a bit lately, and this morning I happened to look at a watch I keep in the bathroom (it shows the seconds too) at just the right SECOND — “5:55:55,” which was a potent 5 message.  In a post I did recently(“Angelic Numerology”), it indicates this about the 5…

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“When you notice 5’s, this means significant transformation is going on within you, to bring you more into alignment, with the real you. You are being transformed into a beautiful butterfly.”

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And 5’s are aligned with the rest of these messages, not usually fun in my experience — such is the nature of “transformation.”  Ya’ just have to stick it out to get to the good stuff :) 

So this morning, I did my usual adrenaline-addict rush to work, angry about how I repeat this pattern every morning.  But usually I shake that off and have a good day, but today, again, I just didn’t feel so good (starting to feel better now).  I cut my cards when I got here, and got the most icky card in the deck.  Cut again, and yet another icky one.  Not a surprise — the cards draw right from our hearts/minds (our energy).  I felt like crap, so it shows me crap.  And when I see (am reminded of) my energy like that via the Tarot, I immediately try to change it.  Not always easy, especially when you’re not feeling well physically. 

I then did a spread online and it showed me as Pitiful Pearl (lol), the 5 of coins, but the Magician card was in the “Situation” position.  Hmmm, am I resisting becoming the Magician that I am (that we all are)?  Do I need to take some type of action for my healing…?  Or am I feeling the energy of another Magician?  (A problematic connection I have with another that strongly represents unhealthy relationship patterns that I desperately wish to heal.  Actually I feel I have recently made significant progress in this area as well.)  Hmmm, I think perhaps it’s all interrelated. 

The “Near Future” position showed the World card, which can be a healing card, generally a very positive card.  The “Outcome” is the Six of Swords, another healing card, but can also represent grieving or sadness — part of the healing process.

I then endeavored to change my energy and was even saying a positive affirmation, “I am love, I am love…,” that I often use to shift my energy.  I drew another spread (online).  It showed me as the Ace of Cups, a potent love card :)  But what fascinated me, and I don’t remember ever doing this before, the first three cards, the core of the spread was all Aces, three Aces.  Interesting.  Shows some powerful potential (the Aces are like potent seeds).   The Near Future and Outcome cards on this one look very good — I just need to hang in there :)

But the three Aces excite me, getting Aces like that invariably means something new and very cool is on the horizon :)  And that was an awesome dream, even if the Fox did scare me.  Did I mention that the Fox is one of my totems?  Among other things, this dream may be saying that I’m still a bit frightened of my own “magic,” but my magic (represented by the Fox) knows it belongs in “my bed” ;) 

Hmmm, just noticed the time is 4:11 (I started this post this morning, and finishing it up this afternoon) — that, 411, was the number sequence that came up so much on my “Magic Monday.”  

My energy seems to have really improved since this morning, because I just drew a beautiful 3-card spread (yep, online again, heh), way good stuff on that one too.  It’s so cool to truly know that my world is all about MY energy.  I have the pow-uh ;)

Exciting times…

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  I was just reading an old post I did on a book that I feel everyone should read — that is, those who are so very tired of being on a hamster wheel that never gets them to where they wish to be, wondering where’s the happiness, the freedom…   It’s called “The Paradigm Conspiracy.”  My previous post includes an overview of the book (note, the bolded areas were my doing). 

As I was reading over this overview, thoughts came up about a blog I was frequenting on here a while back — trying to tweak the minds of a group of rabid skeptics.  I was sharing a few of my experiences with them, particularly with the Tarot.  Of course, it mattered not that they had zero experience in this regard (and I’ve now spent about a decade almost incessantly using the Tarot), they still scoffed at the prospect that what I spoke was the truth.  Since they’d already warmed up to me a bit, they first tried to be charitable and suggested that I was imagining all of this (heh), but it was clear that if that wasn’t it, dishonesty had to be.  

I tried to not let it annoy me — I s’pose I asked for it by sharing such things with people who believe nothing that their science tells them they shouldn’t believe.  I remember posting my Edison post (where people mocked Edison — scientists, and other lofty ones) on that thread, and there was a brief pause … then one of them came back with something like, “Yeah, but those Edison things could be proved by science.”  At that point, I moved on, because it was clear their minds weren’t budging — but I was like, huh?  Then, why were highly regarded scientists among those who scoffed at and mocked Edison? …

My next thoughts were about a guy in my past.  My cards have actually referenced him as a “fool” (several times) in the negative sense (but there is also a positive take on the fool in the Tarot).  The way he thinks boggles my mind, but I don’t think he’s that much different than many — thinking that “success” is all about how much money you can make.  And so this guy is consumed by his work.  He sees no other way to become his version of a success.  I remember a few years ago when he started working this job, I told him that it was a prison, that it wasn’t worthy of losing his health over.  I heard from him recently — he said he’d been in the hospital a couple of times recently per lack of sleep…   What he doesn’t seem to get is that the present dictates the future.  If it isn’t balanced, the future won’t be.  If you’re not happy in the present, you won’t be in the future either.  The thing is, you can do something in the present that might not be all that you wish for, BUT you must BALANCE it with what you do want.  That is, some energy MUST be put towards what you do want.  If you are currently neglecting and abusing your body for some pay-off in the future, there’s no balance in that — so stay tuned for a messed up body in the future.  But hey, you’ll have lotsa money to go to the hospital and docs a lot…

It’s insanity.  Our bodies, our health, are PRICELESS.  Ya’ can’t go out and buy a new body — NO MATTER HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE.  Ask someone who has no sight, but lotsa money what they’d pay for the gift of sight.  Someone with no legs what they’d pay to have them back?  …  And yet so many of us sacrifice our lives, our health, so as to make money — to buy STUFF.  Geez. 

Actually it isn’t insanity, or even stupidity (usually), it’s what the above-mentioned book speaks of.  A kind of brainwashing via “paradigms.”  And I would add that we keep doing this over and over, because the promise of what it supposedly brings (happiness, or even real security, per money/power), never actually happens — but we think (per the paradigms) that it will if we just work a little more, a little harder…  And then maybe ya’ get “there,” but all you discover is that you’ve been a fool…you’ve been duped into sacrificing your precious body, life, health, TRUE HAPPINESS…for a pile of green paper, a false sense of security/safety, a mountain of material stuff that’s momentarily gratifying but ultimately suffocating, and an illusion of power…  All you truly have in those things is NOTHING, but you’ve lost so much in this FINITE life…

It’s time to “wake up.”  And this book is a good place to start :)  Read the overview of the “The Paradigm Conspiracy” here.  And then also realize that you ARE the power, it’s all about what you believe… And it will be those who are endeavoring to overcome the brainwashing that will truly be powerful in the future, not those who continue to put their total focus and efforts in the outer world, all the while destroying their bodies, and consequently dishonoring the real power — within them.

Peace,
Dove

By Dove, www.TarotwithLove.com  Golly, go figure, that big shiny ball in the sky is there for our GOOD…and yet many of us avoid it like the plague because “they” tell us it’s bad for us.  But so many of us aren’t intentionally avoiding it, we’re just working and sleeping a bit with little time in between for much else, including getting a healthy dose of sunshine. 

I’ve been getting intuitively for several years that a key factor to curing my ills is getting in the sun.  It’s not something I want to fully elaborate upon, but I get almost no sun…  If I could manifest something instantly it would be me living in the country with the opportunity to get at least 2 hours of healthy sunshine every single day, in a secluded area (clothing optional) …  That’s my dream :)   I’m greatly concerned for my health with each day that passes that I am unable to get a good dose of sunshine (as well as that healthy connection to Nature)…  It appears living our lives without much sun is a strong contributor to very serious disease (see link below).

It would seem most of us don’t get our needed sun — and I just came upon some information that really shakes me up.   It seems the vitamin D in that blecky milk from the regular grocery store is not only NOT beneficial, it could actually be contributing to disease.  That’s one point in my favor though, thankfully I haven’t drank that stuff in a lot of years…

Wouldn’t it be something…if someday we realize that we aren’t such defective beings as to need a gazillion hospitals and docs — with all those “required” check-ups and such, but that we simply need to live our lives aligned with Nature — not housed in concrete and steel, swallowing toxic crap on multiple levels, everyday, all day long…  Hmm, almost seems like common sense, eh? :)

Peace,
Dove

Here’s an excerpt from an enlightening article on this topic.

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All Vitamin D Supplements are Not the Same

“I’m not certain what type of vitamin D was studied in the report above, however the abstract mentions the vitamin D that’s added to milk and cereals. Well, the vitamin D that’s added to milk is synthetic vitamin D2 (ergocalciferol) and is not something that you should be taking anyway.

Only vitamin D3 (cholecalciferol), the type of vitamin D found naturally in foods like eggs, organ meats, animal fat, cod liver oil, and fish, is appropriate for supplementation. Do NOT use the highly inferior vitamin D2.

There have been no clinical trials to date demonstrating conclusively that D2 prevents fractures, yet every clinical trial of D3 has shown it does. Further, vitamin D2 has a shorter shelf life, and its metabolites bind with protein poorly, making it less effective.

Studies have even concluded that vitamin D2 should no longer be regarded as a nutrient appropriate for supplementation or fortification of foods (though it continues to be used).

So if you choose to use vitamin D supplements make sure it is in the form of vitamin D3. And remember that if you are relying on your “fortified” milk to supply you with vitamin D, it is NOT giving you the healthy type of vitamin D that has been associated with all the benefits that you read about on this site and in the media.

If you do choose to supplement with oral vitamin D you will need to carefully monitor your levels to avoid overdosing. The only time you don’t need to worry about whether or not you’re getting too much, or too little, vitamin D is when your body makes it naturally from the sun.”

Read more here…

http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2008/02/12/why-vitamin-d-supplements-are-not-the-same-as-sunlight.aspx

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Here’s another current and worthy article on this topic — more info, and no purchase required :)

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“The Nebraska 4-year placebo-controlled study has revealed that the group receiving the calcium and vitamin D supplements showed at least 60 percent decrease in cancers. Note that these astonishing effects were achieved on what many nutritionists consider to be a low dose of vitamin D. Exposure to sunlight, which creates even more vitamin D in the body, was not tested or considered, and the quality of the calcium supplements was likely not as high as it could have been (it was probably calcium carbonate and not high-grade calcium aspartate, oratate or citrate).”

Source:  http://www.naturalnews.com/022889.html

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